its almost 8pm now and I just got home, there was a change of plans from the last time I was here. I had planned to go to the park with some friends buuuut I ended up going out to eat with them and got some supplies to pierce the eyebrow of one of my friends.

now I dont condone this and I personally would never do it to myself, but my friend was going to do it either way so i made sure we got everything we needed and had everything clean.

it was just the both of us and she swore up and down that she knew how to do everything, that it was going to be easy because she had previously gone in to get her eyebrow done professionally so technically it would be a piece of cake. WRONG!! she's horrible, a big liar.

first off she didn't even have the balls to do it, she stood there for a good 15 minutes counting down from 3 to put the needle in. do u know how many time i held my breath waiting? and guess what... SHE DIDNT EVEN DO IT. she looks at me and says, "ur going to have to do it for me"

ARE U SERIOUS????

I've never done anything like this before, this isn't my face, its hers. I literally can't mess up because then its all my fault. but she was so excited all day to get this done, she had watched multiple videos, she's been talking about it for weeks.

so whatever, she clamped it, she positioned it, she told me when she was ready. all I had to do was push the needle in. and I did.

she moved quite a bit, I remember grabbing the top of her head to keep her still while I forced it in, it honestly wasn't as hard as I thought. she didnt scream or anything, I think she was more surprised. there was so much blood tho. we couldn't get that stupid little ball thing to twist it closed, she tried multiple times but it kept falling out of her hands.

I was literally on my KNEES on the FLOOR looking for that dumb little piece. I ended up putting it in for her too.

I can't complain tho, I'm glad I was there to help cause I'm afraid if she was alone she would've messed up big time. quite scary tho, never had that much blood on my hands like that before, its a good thing im not a queasy person.

anyways I'll probably call it a day today, I'll stay up a bit and read then go to bed.

you know, I really like this thing I'm doing here. when I got back home and plopped on my bed my first thought was writing this down and I'm glad I did, I might not do this every day but I can always come back and recap everything that's been going on. I like it.

it just turned 3 in the afternoon so my day isn't over yet buuut I was thinking might as well put something down in case I do forget later.

today has been a boringggg day, I just finished getting ready and I'm about to head out to the park with some friends soo pretty excited about that. I'll let yall know how that goes.

I feel like i should be ending these things a certain way, maybe actually put the date down or something so I'll guess I'll start now.

its almost 3am and I know I have to sleep but at the same time I dont want to but what else is new 🤷‍♀️ my mind has been racing lately for no reason, I swear it goes so fast that my thoughts just turn into mush and now I just look like a zombie going thru life, not to mention I've been putting off the book I've been reading cause I KNOW it's a good book but I feel like I have no motivation to read it and I actually want to enjoy it.

I need to pick up a hobby, something to do by myself. I cant go out every day and I feel I've been getting too dependent on my friends and oh no thats not good at all. I mean I can go out all day but I feel that I'm just avoiding all my problems and they're kind of piling up in my brain. ugh thats literally the worst.

if hannibal caught me and placed my brain on a platter I'm afraid there's nothing he can do to make it look appealing. speaking of culinary arts I've recently watched Voicemails for Isabelle and zooweemama that man is fineeee, and that main actress?? she's stunning. i watch this podcast called Take Your Shoes Off with Rick Glassman and he had her on, it was my first time even seeing her so my first impression of her was just based off that. she's smart, stunning, witty, and overall seems like such a sweet person.

some people have it all dont they?