InViSiBlE

“She was the kind of girl you’d want to spend your Sunday with. Because with some people, even running errands seems like an adventure.”

“You fucked me up, do you know that? My biggest fear used to be ending up alone. It used to scare the shit out of me, the idea of living a lifetime and not being able to find someone that loves me unconditionally. After you however, that is no longer my biggest fear. After you, my biggest fear is finding someone that earns my trust, breaks down my walls and shows me love. My biggest fear is that I’ll invest so much of my time and expose so much of my soul to someone only to find out I was nothing but temporary, disposable, to them just like I was to you.”

“Realizing that I don’t want or need you anymore is a beautiful thing. I don’t survive through your compliments or compulsively check to see if you’ve texted me. Your opinion of me no longer makes or breaks my day. I don’t need you anymore. I don’t want you, at least not as a lover, either. It’s beautiful.”

things toddlers and i have in common

stranger: *pronounces my name right*

My Mother asks why I’m like this — why I continue to let my pain set me on fire & why I do nothing while it burns— how do I tell her that the only time I feel alive is when the flames reach my neck & the only time I find peace is in the fire, in the flames, in the burning of who I am // My Mother asks why I let people take pieces of me when they leave, to leave yourself with so little is not living— how do I tell her that this body I carry is not mine & that it belongs to the first man who touched it without my permission // My Mother tells me I am lucky to survive & that the ambulance got there just in time— how do I tell her that I don’t feel lucky, that they should of let me die.

“Make sure you don’t start seeing yourself through the eyes of people who don’t value you. Know your worth even if they don’t.”

“If you want to succeed in your life, remember this phrase. The past does not equal the future. Because you failed yesterday; or all day today, or a moment ago, or for the last six months; the last 16 years, or the last fifty years of life doesn’t mean anything…all that matters is what are you going to do, right now.”

“Be crazy. Be stupid. Be weird. Be whatever - because life is too short to be anything but happy.”

gentle reminder

“Love yourself as much as you want your soulmate to love you.”