unsaid

Jf, tamer fck this omg

I think I broke up with him officially. That's all I could handle. I feel sad and a heavy load off my shoulders.

The stress level is fcking through the roof. I need to chill. He used to b my relief but not anymore huh.

It's doomed. We knew it was over 2 months ago shut why do we keep dragging it on? Why don't you just break up with me? Why are you still ignoring me when I bring it up? Why not just end it? I shouldn't have cried that day, maybe if I didn't we won't be in this mess right now. I told you one thing. If you are trying, I always will. But your not. You needed your space and I gave it. I gave you your freedom but I can't have mine. You can't trust me? What did u expect? We need to break up. Game over.

I'm bored. Why? You haven't been trying as much as you did months ago. You say you were busy doing something else? Are you really? I'm starting to doubt you. This week has been garbage and you knew that. You barely even talked to me. I'm sad and bored. Before we even started, I told you. I told you not to make me feel this way about you. I told you that if I know you're trying then I will always do too. Has it been that way lately? No, this week was really something and I think I've had enough of it. I want to talk to my friends but they abandoned me after u came along, I don't blame you. I shouldn't have spent so much time with you that I basically ditched them all the time. That was when I thought I could talk to u about anything. I was wrong and I am the one to blame. This was all my doing. Space is what I need. If you think the space is gonna make you lose your feelings then maybe we aren't suppose to be. Right?

Yes, I’ll explode but in the end I’ll be alright. I need time and support. It’s back and I don’t know what to do anymore.