IDNH

Today life has started to feel better might be because right now I have nothing to worry about still waiting for Friday to come.

A small argument between a friend stopped today.

Nothing interesting happened today. Rn I’m feeling nostalgic because I’m listening to some songs I used to listen to more. Finnish rock songs from the band ‘Herra Ylppö’ nowadays I listen to metal most of the time back then I used to listen to rock alot now I listen to metal alot

I’m gonna continue this “diary” tho it is kinda painful to write for some reason.

Today nothing special really happened I just apologized to a friend for “kinda being an asshole earlier” she said that it’s fine and don’t worry.

I have basically two small friend groups and I kinda cut connections to the other group for some reason not sure. Now everyone there knows more about my past than I usually tell people. Idk people just never look at you the same. I wasn’t the manipulator I was the manipulatee

I kinda cut connections with the other group, Like they are nice people but they just made me worse. Also got on to a small “argument” with my best friend from that group it’s more of a waiting game on who will talk to the other person first and give up and I’m enough of an asshole to not give up.

Also the group now thinks/knows I have attachment issues wich I’m not sure if I have. I’d say I also have trust issues but I trust people easily. 

This week I have just been waiting for the next Saturday

Today I’m starting to write a small (daily) blog or a diary of sorts.

Yesterday I learned something I should have known already that telling people about your problems doesn’t help. Before you leave wait hear me out

First of all telling someone who understands your sorrows might help but in my case they are hard to find because they are like me; they seem fine from the outside.

Telling people who don’t understand they try to fix you they tho can’t. They might not do it on purpose but they still do it. You shouldn’t try to understand something you can’t understand or never can and never will be able to understand.