CATHY MADE ME DO IT

ITS BEEN ONE FUCKING DAY

5 w33kz to get my shit together i hope n why the hard thing gotta be the right thing n why am i so fucking tired n why is my doctor a girl i went to high school with n why cant i get my medicine straight n why cant i gain any fucking control n why cant i just be happy with the ones i love

Back on this bitch to vent when needed because I’ve found the internet to be pretty damaging so I’m using it mostly for career purposes. My paranoia is through the fuckimg roof and it’s damaging my friendships. Im not a crazy person. But I am. My grandmother died and I’m thinking about anything else but that which I use as a defense but it’s 100 percent hurting me more because I can’t control my impulses when I’m this tired and it pushes people away. I want to be healthy.

I DESERVE MORE AND ITS NICE TO REALIZE

I feel almost happy and it's fucked up but also amazing and I love having to relearn to put myself into public situations.