Contradictory Masochist

in another life, you stayed and I never had to let you go.

The older I get, the less I explain myself and the more peaceful I become.

Nights turn thoughts into storms, and suddenly everything feels louder inside your head, every mistake, every goodbye, every broken promise, echoing like a never-ending loop you can’t escape… no matter how tired your heart is. — Eshaan Thakur

I smile all day like nothing ever broke inside me, but nights know the truth I hide from the world, they see the cracks, the emptiness, the unanswered questions, and the way I still search for someone who already chose to leave… even when I pretend I’ve moved on. — Eshaan Thakur

I'm thankful the storm is long gone, but on some nights, I still wish you hadn't left with it too.

Suddenly I don't want anyone to know me as deeply anymore, which is weird because I have always yearned for someone to understand my soul