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Hey again!! My name is Arda, and on the 15th of October my mother had a mental breakdown and became violent. She battered me, called the police on me, served me eviction papers, and then started a smear campaign, telling anybody who would listen to her that I was having a mental health episode. I was homeless for two weeks before she changed her mind, and when I returned she still expected an apology from me. To this day, she believes I am responsible for her reaction and feels no remorse whatsoever. My mother has a behavioral pattern of narcissistic abuse that I thought she had grown past, which is why I broke no contact in 2023 to reconnect, but clearly this is her default programming, to which she will resort when things get too difficult for her.

Living with my father isn't an option either; he is just as damaging a support system as my mother, albeit for less immediately dangerous reasons. I don't have the money to move back regardless, and that isn't something he is historically able or willing to help me with. So! The best option for me at this point is to move to a new state, where I not only will have non-familial support, but can enforce no contact with my abuser more thoroughly. I have had a very difficult time finding a job this year (shocker) and my car broke down, so I had to sell it—and I used up the money while homeless. I am undeniably backed into a corner at the moment but I'm doing my very best to make the most of it. Right now asking for help is one of the only things I can do, so I will keep trying! There are a lot of avenues you can help me through; -reblogs (of course!) -buying prints from me -check out this project I'm working on! its animated! -subscribe to my patreon! the tip jar tier is only $3/mo! -donating directly to my moving funds! (thank you! <3)