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Well I figured I would talk about something that’s pretty much my life right now: college. Yay, right? Not particularly. I’m a freshman in college at a school I’m not necessarily happy with. The people are okay and the school itself is pretty; I just never formed a connection. Let me give you a background. I never wanted to go to college in my current state (Florida), so I only applied to one school here. Plus it was the only school here that had the specific major that I was interested in at the time. I also applied to one school in Indiana, California, and New Jersey (my home state), and got into all of them. I was pretty much talked into going where I go now by my parents because it was the closest and the most affordable. Touring this school never gave me the feeling I expected and had gotten from other colleges. 

So I start here and all is well for about two months. In October, I was already talking about going somewhere else. Had I made the wrong decision? Was it going to be possible to get in somewhere else? Transferring is a lot of work, can I do it? I decided to just finish the semester and see what happened. I disliked pretty much all of my classes and didn’t feel like I was spending my time and money wisely. I wasn’t learning anything. I remember spending time looking up transfer applications and searching for new majors while my roommate studied for finals. I just didn’t want to be here anymore. The month off from Christmas made me realize just how unhappy I was. Going back was torture, but I knew that I needed to do well this semester, my current semester, to get out. 

Now, in March, I’ve set up an advising meeting to further discuss my plans. It’s known to my parents and my closest friends that I will not be returning here next year under any circumstances; it’s not worth the stress. I know that it’s going to be a tough process making a transition again into an environment where people already know each other. But honestly, the idea of being the odd one out doesn’t bother me as much as thinking about staying here. I know that I should be grateful that I even have the chance to get a higher education, and I am, don’t get me wrong. It’s just that I don’t have an infinite amount of time on Earth, so why waste four perfectly good years at a school that doesn’t make me happy and that doesn’t feel like home? I just don’t see the point of spending so much money to hate what I’m doing. So I’m going to leave and not look back and pursue a new career path. 

And it’ll be wonderful.