this is what you came for

baby love, I think I've been a little too kind...

ellen bass and laura davis, the courage to heal, harper collins, 1988

So I'm trying to get myself healed and over the symptoms of that damage without denying that it happened. This is the intellectual "me" talking. This is not the eleven-year-old girl. She doesn't want to let go. It's an emotional feeling. And emotions are very powerful. You can have all the right intellectual thoughts and emotionally you can be very childlike. And the fearful child in me doesn't want to be forgotten. So I have to reassure her that my getting better doesn't mean I'm abandoning her or denying her pain."]

TAYLOR SWIFT @ 2019 Billboard Music Awards performs “ME!” onstage at MGM Grand Garden Arena on May 01, 2019 in Las Vegas, Nevada.

I fuck with this

Written on the Body, Jeanette Winterson

GET OUT (2017) dir. Jordan Peele PEARL (2022) dir. Ti West SMILE 2 (2024) dir. Parker Finn OBSESSION (2026) dir. Curry Barker

Any idea who it could be?

Oil on linen ,

INTERVIEW WITH THE VAMPIRE | THE VAMPIRE LESTAT — 1.04 “...The Ruthless Pursuit of Blood With All a Child's Demanding” — 3.05 “New York”

Really

when you let yourself get sour grapes about shit, you tacitly give up on yourself. when you sit around hoping other people will flop and fail so you can catch up to them, you stop trying. it's a fantasy of mediocrity, the vain wish that other people would walk so you could take the gold medal at a jog. wouldn't you rather come last place at 27mph?