this is what you came for

i've been trying to make an effort to remove from my parlance all expressions referring to childhood as a shorthand for "rightful situation of subordination" and it has been surpisingly difficult. i have noticed i do end up saying "i am not a child" quite often when people try to belittle me/control me etc. i don't like the implication that if i was a child this would be allowed and i think language has meaning, hence the effort. very pervasive mindset once you start to track it

armand, his eyes enormous: you MOCK armand? you make fun of his traumas on the stage? oh! oh! suicide for the band! suicide for the band for One Thousand Years!!!!

kinda bullshit the English language doesn't have a discrete word for an unlit campfire. you light a campfire, but what is it before you light it? also a campfire, I guess. I need to invent a word that can be intuitively understood as "the arrangement of wood that is intended to become a campfire"

well "an arrangement of wood that is intended to become a campfire" sounds like it's just a bundle of sticks and I think there is a collective word for that maybe

condolences man. extend my condys

“word hashtag my word #myword” has done irreversible damage to my vocabulary

fans of classics of the literary canon are the most lucky ppl because we have boatloads of high quality "meta" (journal articles) written by the most insane unwell "stans" (professors of literature) in a massive ongoing "fandom" (academic conversation) going back like 100+ years depending on your book. typically very high-toned argument and structure as well which satisfies my personal tastes exceedingly. the amount of preposterous unsupported reaching and rate of offensive/borderline evil takes is the same as regular fandom meta though or even more maybe which is what makes it extra delightful

no babe i find your strange and creepy and perverted vibe to be very cute actually