is this a dream?

I’m sitting here with another in my body and I feel so alone. I don’t know how i’ll get through this winter financially and I thought your priorities had finally aligned with mine. I couldn’t have been more wrong and i’m choked by the idealism without basis. You’re making sure I have nothing, less than nothing by making your choice and I’ll never forget that. I feel hope and trust shattered in a way that will screw me over in every way for the foreseeable future. Haven’t I given enough; my body, my blood, my career, my family, my savings, my whole life? and for what, to be ignored and cast aside for those who don’t even respect you? I’m losing respect too and I’m left on my sad, cold island yet again, only growing resentment and disappointment. I hope you’re happy with your priorities.