I am Nikki Phoenix

There’s that last post we all make... You lied and promised my freedom. I wish you’d love me back. But trauma is different for everyone sometimes we can’t love the ones we destroyed out of shame or maybe we don’t care cause they deserved it. Not me, I love everything can’t believe what I did. https://www.instagram.com/p/B9IVr4hJDKW/?igshid=3yk8pi1duqqs

Leave me alone. What I did last night is unforgettable. There’s a rabbit hole I ain’t coming back from. Bye. https://www.instagram.com/p/B9IInSgJjlf/?igshid=1t3bplb0w8f35

Every time I think about you, I smile. One day this all be over One day my love we will cross over Everytime I hear your voice I pleasure for while One day we will be together again One day we won’t have to pretend I love you to stars and moon We will be together again very soon. #houseofphoenix #egg #bootypics #bootyfordays #bootylicious🍑 #happy #love #couplesgoals #couples #smile #fitness #girlswholift #legs #nikehyperwarm #nike #nikeshoes https://www.instagram.com/p/BtECEILH5tu/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1nl0kelsa9ckt

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Work hard, play hard, I got dreams and taken you with me. #houseofphoenix #nikkiphoenix #bootypics #bootybootybooty #bootyqueen #bootyfordays #workout #fitness https://www.instagram.com/p/Bo7Fi6tH6Ut/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1spou1s62eqwz

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The most painful tears are not the ones that fall from your eyes and face. But the tears that fall from your heart and soul. I’ve been through so much in my life. I was Abused as a kid and molested, bullied by my peers in school, beaten by multiple lovers, I was raped, I didn’t know my bio father for most of my life, abused by both husbands, used by so many of my friends, I have had 2 abortions due to complications... the list goes on. My girl, who I spoke with this morning reminded me that I give so much love to those I care about even when they aren’t deserving of it. I do my best to never disrespect or treat anyone I love no matter what, badly. Even when I’m mad. I’m not perfect but you won’t see me doing things such as calling you names or making feel like you aren’t worth fighting for and in my heart. It’s sucks though because I hold myself to such high standard to treat my love, my friends, my family as if they are my everything. I DO NOT get the same respect or kindness in the ways they KNOW I need it. The pain in my heart and soul I have to live with everyday, like never being able to see my unborn babies smile or hear them laugh. Or the nightmares I have of being raped or abused. I have a heavy heart and yet I still choose to love. If I love you, know it was hard to get there considering how much pain I’ve been through. I cry everyday inside and yet, I still smile. I do all that I can to make you smile and show you just how much I love you. If you treat me like poorly, I will eventually stop caring and cut you off. https://www.instagram.com/p/Bow7Rv6HYPC/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=qqlxstvag9zd

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