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anyway - here is my last wip pic before i finish it and post the full thing :-) it has been such a labour of love and it’s driven me fucking mad and i’m SO EXCITED TO BE DONE WITH IT SOON (hopefully tmmr but tmmr is going to be very busy for me and idk if the paint i have to go over will be dry enough to finish yet… but soon! so soon)

anyway i love u guys and thank u for supporting my art as much as u do <3 <3 crying in the club

also you are never going to be safe for people for whom english is their second language. if someone clarifies their meaning and apologises and you can't accept that over the original wording then don't bother pretending to be autism friendly.

and like part of my autism is that i become convinced that the way i interpret words is the way that they're meant. my autism is disabling to my communication abilities. i have poor emotional regulation, i jump to conclusions. a lot of my reactions are informed by prior negative experiences. i can and probably have been overly defensive in the past.

and i've been misinterpreted so much and had my words picked over and mocked for saying the wrong things and mocked for being unable to say anything at all and it always feels devastating. it's ironic that the same disability that has me treated poorly would have me react poorly to a similar situation, but that's just how it is.

drew and got this geoscar spiderman au custom poster print for my irl bestie's birthday yesterday!!

I think that my grandmother didn’t become the first woman race car driver because she’s the sort of person who thinks that every time you eat at a dining table you need a full table placement. You can’t just bring a plate and fork to the table you’ve gotta have like tablecloth, placemats, two kinds of knives, the works. Her mind cannot comprehend a universe where you could just eat a sandwich off of a napkin at the table.

So in the same vein she couldn’t conceive of a woman race car driver because there weren’t women race car drivers when she was a kid. She was like “oh it just wasn’t done back then” so she didn’t even try even though that was her dream job.

There were people in my life who taught me how to question the rules and assert myself and I had parents who encouraged me to follow my dreams first and think about money second.

I got lucky though. Not everybody has people to teach them how to be bold and not everybody is naturally a rule breaker.

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oil on canvas, 16x20