You know what youve done

Thank you but whoever is posting about this on twitter is not me, i did not want it to spread to twitter, i just wanted to warn people on tumblr as dumb as it is. I NEVER wanted it to go deeper than just block and move on and instead someone else has taken my story and did terrible shit with it.

ITS NOT FUCKING ME! I DONT WHO THAT PERSON IS AND THEY CAN GO FUCK THEMSELVES

This is a note for Xavier should they see this, ill put it under a readmore

-In 11th grade around august, they kept asking me for sex but in June i broke up with them. However they wouldnt stop guilt tripping me and made me promise to take her back when school started. By then they had already r//ped/ me multiple times so they were well aware i was too afraid to say no so instead i kept making excuses. It got to the point where they decided to ditch to my gym class (tho i told them they could get in trouble and stuff). it went down hill once they said they went to the bathroom and kept checking inside to see if it was empty, by now i was panicking but kept reassuring myself it was fine. Then they called me over loudly and more than once so i got up and asked them if they needed help or something. Instead they pushed me into the stall. They went under my shirt and groped me there while i stood kinda still. (i was clutching my phone and dissociating and just trying to be somewhere else.) right before she could go under my boxers tho we were caught by security. However my ex managed to come up with an excuse that /i/ was actually trying to help them with their bra strap n it worked. When we left the office oh boy i was shaking and cryin, my ex thought it was cause we almost got caught n they reassured me for that but i was actually shaking and crying cause of how relieved i was to not be raped that day

-Once offered me their antidepressants so i could feel better but they knew i was already drinking and getting high

-I tried to kiss her goodbye and tried to gently tug on her hoodie but another friend pulled on my arm so i accidentally choked them. I took the time to say sorry and it was an accident. The next day they came behind me, wrapped an arm around my neck and choked me hard, when i tried to stay away from them they clung to my arm begging for forgiveness and wouldnt let go until i did.

- Slapped me because i threw a water bottle and it accidentally hit someone , slapped me again because i annoyed. Even told me to stay still and it wouldnt hurt too much

-Very early in our relationship Xavier claimed to have insomnia which was fine what wasnt okay was when they would threaten to kill themselves if i ever fell asleep on them, therefore i developed a literal fear of falling asleep on someone

- Used to pretend to have alters and with those alters they would use “them” to threaten suicide and taunt me. They weren’t the same alter they say they have right now, it was two different ones.

-Again ditched with me but this time while we were changing in the locker room they kept going on n on about how they wanted to kiss my thighs so when no one was around (or so i thought) i gave in and said okay except they didnt stop at kissing, they gave me oral without asking until i pushed them away and they demanded i do it back. I felt dissociated again and scared so i gave in but stopped because i kept gagging. Later on i learned that people were watching one of them was a friend but she just told me how hot it was.

-Drew nude pics and sent me nudes even when i show no interest in either thing and even told them they could get in trouble from doing those things.

-After my mom found out i was not straight and threatened to beat me and take my phone and stuff i had tried to kill myself, obviously i wasnt successful and i told my ex and they got very mad at me. Xavier asked me if i ever thought about their feelings etc most of it is cloudy tho when i asked my ex for details later on they told me not to worry about it.

In highschool i struggled with gender a lot so for a while i settled on being nonbinary, it happened a year after we met so when they did misgender or deadname me it was quickly forgiven. What i wasnt aware of however is they misgendered and deadnamed me when i wasnt around i.e. around my bf (who they met TWO years after me coming out.)

Xavier had a habit of spreading lies, specifically about what i did (didnt) actually do. I have never laid a hand on them except in self defense and even then it was just to get them off me or to get away.

Friend B, confirming that Xavier did try and lie but never actually went through with it. Normally I’d say to believe survivors but when it comes out to save face well.

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So they have admitted to assaulting me tho it happened more than once. ON school grounds, namely the bathrooms.

This from one of their old sideblogs where obviously they are admitting to what they did, but where they also accuse me of the same thing. Which i will address in a different post. What irks me is how they can say “yeah i was EXTREMELY abusive but im also really empowered rn :)” because i guess it wasnt obvious to NOT be an abusive asshole but okay. 

My boyfriend again, once I told him what happened (after it going on for about a year or two), he went to confront them and they right away began to cry type and stuff. 

So this will all be about how possesive they were at the time. To the point where it became pretty obvious. I did try and block out names and pfp. Another thing, these messages are YEARS old, atleast five or six im not really sure so there is misgendering because that was what they identified at the time. 

1. The first one is my irl friend, for whatever reason my ex was fixated on her. She believed that I would cheat or something? But she would come off as rude or irritated with her more often than not.  2. The second is also my irl friend. 

This is my boyfriend, at the time we were just long distance but now we live together. MY ex and him were friends while I dated both of them. Yes they were both aware of each other and at the time everyone was okay with it. This is also the same person they tried to manipulate into leaving me and be with them. 

Again this is Friend A going more depth of what she witnessed first hand.

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- Very early in our relationship they liked to compare me /their/ ex to the point where they urged me to cut my hair because i liked to keep them in braids. By this point they've already choked me so i was too scared to question them.

- i had a black floral dress, it did have cleavage and showed my back. I always wore combat boots , leggings and a sweater with it. Once i decided to take off the sweater and put my hair up. In front of everyone my ex told me to cover up because im "showing too much". It was a hot day and we were all sweaty.

- we were messing around under a tree in the shade, eventually they pinned me down to the ground. I was nervous but went along with it. They kept trying to kiss me and i wanted to stop so i kept saying to stop and shook my head to avoid her. I even started to kick a bit they only stopped once i yelled with tears in my eyes. When i asked why they didnt stop they simply said "i couldnt hear you"

- lied to all of our friends that i raped them, offered no proof and yet had half convinced that i did rape them