Thou may ingest a satchel of immature Richards.

Feeling kind of desperate this year in a way that feels very distinct. All the therapy and medication in the world do not solve lacking resources. Because your life doesn't really improve if you cannot access resources to improve your material conditions. It definitely sometimes feel selfish because I can't reasonably earn money in a way that isn't detrimental to my health. I'm not even sure if I could earn money in the ways that I know that would be damaging for my mental health.

One thing I can hope for though is that I can get these credit cards paid off at least. So if something should happen to me, for whatever reason, my family isn't left with an extreme amount of debt. I hope everyone out there is taking care of themselves as best as they can and know that you have my die-hard appreciation and my tears when you do share and donate. Thank you for reading! 🫶🏾

And i think this is also one of the biggest and most important differences between Steve and Sam. Steve is like a fire. passionate and burning bright and hot. he draws you to his light and heat, but can just as easily burn you down if you stand in his way. he is both safety and risk; life and death; and which you get just depends on if your on his side or not the moment he gets close.

I was trying to articulate why Bucky would fall for Steve and why the same characteristics that make Steve charismatic and magnetic are what makes him so dangerous and hurtful: Steve does what feels right to him eith no consideration to who his actions affect. If your on his side atm, that looks like passion, decisiveness and integrity. But its actually selfishness and impulsivity. I compared this to fire: you can use it to warm you or light the way, but your just as likely to get burnt and it can have devastating effects on the world if it gets out of control.

Sam isnt like that. Sam is an incredibly stable, steady person who has invested a lot into his own mental health, coping skills, and healthy boundaries. Hea not perfect, ofc, but he is a stable safe person and Bucky hasnt had that often in his life.

Saying that a current partner is different from a past partner doesnt imply that the current partner is a consolation prize.

Just because Sam's instability isn't shown in the same capacity doesn't mean it doesn't exist. But he's also a Black man in America who was in the armed forces and from the South so he's prolly had a lot of firsthand experience in having to control all of his temperaments. I wouldn't say stable about a man who without question rushes to join a dangerous mission with Captain America on their second meeting, the same man who volunteered to be strapped to a flying machine with great exposure to his human body since there was minimal armor to be seen? This same man who's been running from his own past traumas, volunteering to help others so he doesn't have to focus on self?

Like, you're conflating his loyalty and love fer his people with being the caretaker fer Bucky which is incredibly tired regurgitated bullshit and it ain't cute, it ain't funny and you not slick.

They see each other, Sam and Bucky, not Steve because they are their own gotdayum people.

It's very weird to be unwilling to focus on who those characters are without bringing up Steve in every aspect, claiming they don't work because their attraction to Steve is both the pull between them and what keeps them apart because they aren't Steve.

Nuance is the new media literacy fer you lot and you're incapable of the latter as you are the former.

How do you claim to not love Steve yet keep shoving gis importance into the forefront of other characters. The only one trying to live up to Roger's legacy was Walker's failure ass, a man the complete antithesis to what it means to be Captain America. He was a good, dutiful soldier regardless of the casualties his orders could potentially cause, but he was not a good man with a good heart plagued with the rightness of his own choices.

A good chunk of the show is about how those in power continue to shit on the disenfranchised qnd powerless without remorse or concern until that power balance is challenged. Then a reframing of the incidents happen to make their stance the pure one, to justify the slaughter of people purposely forgotten, ignored and left to rot. And to justify the hostile actions by government decision, ie Walker seeking out the Flagsmashers to stop them.

Bucky projected his insecurities onto Sam's decision. Hell, even Walker projected his insecurities after multiple failures onto Sam and saw the serum as a way to one up him and prove his own worth, which he failed at spectacularly.

literally every day - especially since That movie came out, and damn near every day i've been in this fandom like i have circa tfatws airing - there's someone stinking up the air in sam's tag (on every website, not just on tumblr) with some version of sam as a consolation prize, sam as a blow up doll, sam as a therapist, stucky with a side of sam, "i liked him better as falcon"/"he's not leader material", disingenuous reading of canon to make sam seem evil and/or hold him to standards no one has ever held a white character in the mcu to, and every way you could think to be antiBlack short of calling him a slur (and sometimes calling him a slur!). it's so frustrating as a fan of the character, and often disgusting to witness. and the fact that some people will hide behind "it's fandom, anything goes, no censorship" when they're being racist and antiBlack is vile.

(as an aside, i've spent some time looking at dead blogs just for circulating some old content/616 edits, and while i think it's obvious in a lot of different ways what happened since endgame came out to encourage this shift, it's really sad to see how much more general appreciation and genuine conversations there was about sam, on a WIDE scale. again, lots of factors as to why that's shifted, but it's still sad when that shift straight up didn't happen at all to some white characters in the same universe, or hell in the same vicinity as sam.)

anyway, i do stand by what i said in that ask, and i think - with hindsight - it was really shitty of that person to come up in my inbox and tell me how much they liked my fic posted during a celebratory month held for the character celebrating the character but wanted me to talk about his negative traits too, and then double-down and get pissy with people being pissy with them (who are upset in the first place because of the aforementioned constant barrage of bullshit in the tags) and also later ask me to think of "real" negative character traits that apply to sam. but that's how this fandom loves to move about him.

and look, like i said, sam is not perfect and he absolutely has ways he can "better" himself, but the reality is also that sam is a character who, while fulsome in many ways, ultimately exists to drive specific narratives. and with superheroes, the kind of heroing they do and the type of cape they wear, and especially who they are with and without the cape on, is indicative of that. sam is very consistently written in that way. the desire to twist sam into something he just straight up isn't to try and make him more "interesting" (is he not interesting enough?) begs some key questions: do you actually understand this character? can you interact with the character and material closely and critically enough to derive the - in my opinion - obvious themes and morals? and most importantly, do you actually like this character you're in this fandom for?

They see each other, Sam and Bucky, not Steve because they are their own gotdayum people.

It's very weird to be unwilling to focus on who those characters are without bringing up Steve in every aspect, claiming they don't work because their attraction to Steve is both the pull between them and what keeps them apart because they aren't Steve.

Nuance is the new media literacy fer you lot and you're incapable of the latter as you are the former.

I don’t ship sambucky myself but lord do I fuck with the idea and its fanbase. I see the vision. like yesss make bucky fall in love with that man. he needs security. he needs to adapt to change. yesssss. I do prefer them as just friends, and I am a stucky shipper. however. I see yall. I see what yall r doing. it’s magical

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Yelena only caring about “big potatoes” (god that’s already gotten so cringe so fast) goes to show how little the so called new avengers care about saving lives. Yelena doesn’t fall far from her father’s tree of wanting the glory and fame it seems. They want to be seen handling the big world ending stuff but can’t be bothered with smaller events because it’s apparently beneath them.

They see each other, Sam and Bucky, not Steve because they are their own gotdayum people.

“I hope Sam and Bucky beat up Steve!”

“I hope Sam and Bucky make out in front of Steve!”

“Steve’s going to be so upset when he sees SamBucky and realizes what he could’ve had with Bucky!”

“Sam is better for Bucky than Steve, because…”

Y’all cannot discuss the SamBucky ship without making it about Steve and/or Stucky, and therein lies the problem. You think that nobody was shipping Sam and Bucky before Endgame, even though that’s simply not true. And you’re under the delusion that Sam and Bucky’s canon relationship in the comics and in the MCU and their fanon ship, revolves around Steve, and that’s another thing that’s patently false. The bizarre reactions to the trailer have only magnified this years long fandom problem. SamBucky isn’t a ship that exists because Steve went back in time to marry the canon love of his life, Peggy, and it’s bizarre that so many of you think it does, especially since you could go to various sites and find proof that that isn’t the case in about one minute flat if you wanted to. But you don’t want to, you just want to talk about Stucky and whine about your fanon ship that was never going to go canon, not going canon, lol. And while that is your right, you need to stop trying to rewrite SamBucky’s history while you’re doing it.