Sorry.

Also it’s absolutely bullshit how whenever I make a new guy friend at school or like even mention a guy that was like my lab partner he gets all pissy and mad but it’s ok for him to talk about all these girls he’s around 24/7 like ok. I can’t wait for summer so I can get wasted on my own.

I don’t think he understands that I just want to do something together besides just sit at home watching him do shit on his computer before he leaves me for 3 months to do more shit on his computer in a different country. Like finals week is next week and after that he’s busy as hell. He’ll literally only have like 1 week not even to hang out with me before he leaves and it’s like he doesn’t even care that he’s leaving me. Fuckkkkkk. If I ever get feeling for someone again I’m literally going to throw myself onto oncoming traffic

I’m so sick of this shit.

Why do people have to change. I wish I wasn’t such a Fuck up. I’m so sick of myself. I don’t think anyone understands how much I hate myself.

I️ wish I️ had someone who would understand me.

My birthdays in a month and all I want is to be dead.

I don’t fucking know what I’m doing anymore and I think I need serious help.

I miss the old you so much.

I feel so alone.

I want to throw myself out the fucking window

I'm really tried of living

Waking up at 4:30 am screaming and crying isn't what I need right now. I hate myself.