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00:53 may is….may is the month of family.

since childhood, may felt more like the middle of the year than June or July. I thought it was the same month as inflection point of the year. It has a lot of public holidays too.. Labour Day.. Buddha’s Birthday.. Parents’ Day.. Teacher’s Day.. but of course the main (holiday) is Children’s day !

therefore, it becomes may bam! my heart would flutter pointlessly. It’s the month with many days off from school right? I think everyone would do it if you have school days…maybe. Isn’t it that the weight of may alone approaching distinctly, perhaps our childlike innocence is still alive?

the last end of year stage occasion.. everyone, the members and company too said 2017 all together. we’ve already approached half way through the year, time really flies. yesterday I thought about the word “future”.미未(not) 올래來(coming). A word that we live by bound the most together with words of happiness and love. but suddenly there is not future. I thought that.

because its already may of 2017 that we waited eagerly for, maybe the that future is just a myth. because the most important thing is right now. I thought that saying to do it in the future- later on- that future would never come. something about it is superficial but now is the future soon. I’ve always hoped for something for the future and for something to change, but then I couldn’t manage to smell of the trees of the present. it seems that there is a little water given too to speak of. that the present is the future soon

you may be curious. In the meantime I’m getting a some things ready that are fun again. because we have a lot of things to prepare, the pace is a bit slower than before. because we want to make them more carefully and elaborately. I miss when I didn’t know about the world and had fears of the old past. but there are pros and cons. I think I want to show you since I did it so finely. still..I’m daring to do my best. dare I.

BTS is barely starting. Up until now, we have tried things we haven’t before and we want to try more. It’s barely may more or less.. It doesn’t feel like may has come somehow. The may now and the may 10 years ago have many differences but, when I see my little cousin getting excited to go to lotte world, I’m still thrilled and envious. we will be like this. the weather is warm despite it getting hotter as the summer quickens.

how is everyone’s may? In your hearts, me. us. I thought (about that) for a moment, what season, what month will i stay in. But it’s sad that I can’t hear all the stories. I will try to do my best though. Like music if I can do it. warm and hotly.

Spring rain

02:47 latest state of affairs It was a hectic week. I don’t think I conveyed my words of thanks properly, so I’ll write it in bed now like this.

I really wanted to say a lot to you but, there was no place for me to just blurt it all out so I waited eagerly in the studio alone leisurely, to be able to share myself and my thoughts, but I was a little sad due the circumstances not allowing me

nevertheless, It was a week ago that I received comfort from nothing but the words you sent in your letters, in the fansign and your shining eyes and faces when you see us. I’m getting more assured little by little. That that I can surely become a better person, I can accept a lot of things that were fate and accept them with wisdom. I distinctly felt it with your words, with your hands touch and when I looked into your eyes.

I hope my eyes light up the seem as yours when you see me. In spite of the belief there are as many people who know my sincerity as there are who fail to understand it, I could show my face more broadly. from my situation, I wanted to be loved while I be a better person. I think it’s very very fortunate to have these thoughts and feelings like these at 24.

so, if you love me, please observe me a little more comfortable. I think this path was just given to me like this. I think about that I was cold from somewhere inside but I got stronger little by little. I even think about how now is the time of quenching(?). when I want to give up(?) the members become a big comfort to me, watching me silently and put their arms on my shoulders and encourage me with just their bright eyes without saying a word. what does it mean to stay? It just means to be there. I nod my head over and over at the idea that they are more closer to being an adult than I am.

maybe I’ll manage to do it somehow. I just have a hunch. So I can laugh even when it’s not easy. Like when you wait for spring, when spring comes the winter is coming again - Still, after winter spring time will come again, isn’t it a difference knowing this and not when welcoming winter.

from time to time feel my shadow under my feet, but it’s not uncomfortable. That friend is just stuck there right. In the end he can’t do anything. so do you guys too. Thank you for being with me even on the days that are dark like a tunnel. above all, I am just a stranger to you so thank thank out for getting to know me, believing me. I want to get to know you and believe in you too. now I tend to try be a little more relaxed. now the days are coming undone little by little, maybe a little sunlight will enter, even in our jarring times. needlessly. I want to believe that you and I will both find and have peace our life.

the week that was like a dream, it was busy and hard but thank you for laughing crying along with us. I give you all my thanks. to those I love and to those I look up to, those bearing life worthy of nothing but respect. my fan letter!