What Did I See in You?
What did I see in you?
Honestly, I saw nothing.
Yet somehow, your soul visited mine
and made an agreement.
When it is my soul’s choice,
I do not fight it,
because somehow, it is always right.
After a confusing confusion,
after wandering through the wrong places,
finally, Mr Unknown appeared.
But to myself, I questioned
was this Mr Him
or merely Mr Passerby?
As much as I know the zeal I carry,
I placed you in the category of Mr Passer.
If he is just Mr Passer,
do I stay?
Do I fight?
Or do I become her
the version of me that awakens the villain within?
Maybe he is my Clyde,
and I his Bonnie.
Why all the confusion?
I am a Leo, after all.
His custodians and mine
had agreed and built this long before,
so maybe just maybe
this was the destination, I thought.
Then the storm came.
The violent winds.
The little villain behind the Esther in me,
behind the Proverbs 31 woman,
stepped forward.
My king stood there,
giving up on the empire
we had been building.
My Ahasuerus.
My Xerxes.
Did we really have to let Persia fall
when the Lord Himself had spoken,
declaring that together,
we would build it?
Seasons passed
Summer.
Autumn.
Winter.
Calling the king to fight,
yet the king rejected the call.
Was the king prideful?
I never thought so.
I believed in the custodians,
so I fought.
The energy I had buried underground,
locked away in a box,
had to come out,
because I believed God
does not send you a king
just for him to pass by.
What the custodians whispered to me
became my weapon.
And now, before you come to Queen Esther















