Truth is...

Generally, the concept of TIME is a measurement of every individual’s life. But, don’t you think there is more to it? I know it’s limited. Life is limited and we depend on time. Not every bit of matter lingers around forever. We are constantly under pressure moving left and right, up and down. It never stops.

However, if you think about it we do the somewhat the same thing over and over again. We wake, learn, work, eat and sleep. It’s a cycle, yet the only thing that changes is our physical appearance. Time does that to us - we continue to grow and age until every particle of our being dies and becomes into dust. What happens to time when we disappear? How does it continue to move forward without us? Perhaps it dies with us. 

I use to think that time was endless but it is also bound to disappear as well. *tick *tock *tick *tock..... who will keep track of time when we are nothing? 

Time measures our choices. We’re like machines - constantly moving and we don’t stop. Not even when we become unconscious. Time is bound to organize our bodies and the outcomes from our actions. Everything is always moving and it becomes bigger and bigger. 

We also take chances, even if it isn’t one. Time moves forward. To this day, it’s still impossible to retrieve it. We can’t rewind to fix our issues or make better life decisions, we live up to them and carry them on our shoulders. We carry them for as long as time allows us. 

Why is it that all of us have to make a bad remark of someone else or a group of people? What good does that do? Why spread all the hate? Is it because you’re UNHAPPY with YOURSELF, with YOUR life, that you have to go ahead and make others’ lives miserable?! This is just insanely stupid!!! I mean...what makes you better than anyone else if all you spit it poison????? ughhhh i just can’t stand people with so many negative thoughts about another without even considering the good. You know not all people are bad. NOT ALL. Yes I know that most times it comes down to power - superiority. 

I wish everyone would just be happy about themselves and about others instead of spreading all the hate to others. It’s stupid!!! Lets keep the peace and go on with our lives. Don’t you get tired of trying to suppress others people happiness? I don’t know what else to state. I am upset and angry that it even amplifies because I hate being angry. It eats me up and it’s not a good feeling at all. Why can’t we just LOVE each other. We’re all humans anyways. We shouldn’t let labels or name tags define us individually or categorize us....

It’s been 5 years since I lost someone special to me. Some people say that I am a strong lady, but what do they mean by it? Is it because I seem happy or have everything that I needed? Yes, I have come far without this special someone maybe she would have been proud of me. Yes, I might inspire people because of it. I get all the love and support. However, before drifting off to sleep, I’m still filled with this void. Don’t get me wrong. Every goal I have accomplished has been amazing, maybe even a miracle due to my pessimism (I’d like to say “realism”). I deeply love my family and very grateful for them. I truly wish I could wake up and say everything in my life is fine. But... these accomplishments seem meaningless when she is not her to celebrate every moment with me. It makes me extremely sad, but I know I have another day to look forward to. Life is beautiful, even with its flaws.