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"Okay, we've just had dinner, I've been drinking water all day, I just went to pee, so hopefully I won't need to when...all the stuff happens..."

"I can deal with it if you do, Terri. I'm a nurse, I've cleaned worse."

"Yeah, so I shouldn't make you do more of it."

Terri heard Afsoon sigh, and she could feel her eyes following her as she paced rapidly back and forth in the shared space of their apartment. "You'd think after however many months we've been doing this, you'd be less anxious about it." Exactly seven months tonight, but who was counting?

...Terri. Terri was counting. And she knew for a fact her roommate was too, given that Afsoon had playfully bought her a six-month anniversary cake the last full moon and let her eat the whole thing in preparation.

Given how these nights went, it felt weirdly appropriate.

Terri stopped that thought in its tracks and wrenched her brain away from fantasies of what was going to happen later, away from her gorgeous, chubby roommate in her pretty fucking nightgown who was way too fucking calm for where she knew this was going, and away from wanting to kiss and/or lick her, given that the fucking sun was barely out of the sky. No. None of that. She forced her thoughts back to her checklist. Ropes? No. She didn't do that anymore. No muzzling either. Afsoon insisted after the second month. No tranquilizers. Those had been the first thing to go. When Afsoon found out what she was doing with them, Terri was half surprised she didn't turn into a horrifying monster out of sheer rage.

...that wasn't funny. But for some reason, those jokes kept finding their way from Afsoon's lips into Terri's head anyway.

Lock all the doors? Done. Put away any breakables? Done. Prepare, um...implements? That was, uh...that was Afsoon's job. She'd take care of that as necessary. Just thinking about it made Terri's face burn.

Finally tell the full truth?

...no.

The shame balled up in her gut as she knew she wasn't going to do that tonight. She wasn't going to do it any night. And it wasn't like she'd lied. She'd never intended to. It was just...

It was complicated.

"Hey." Afsoon's hand landed on her shoulder, and Terri whipped around, a bit of drool ending up on her cheek as she realized that her teeth and tongue were crowding the inside of her mouth. "It's okay." Afsoon's voice was soft and kind, and she stared at Terri with warm, brown eyes. "Deep breaths, Ter. Deep breaths." Despite the tension in her chest and her thoughts sinking heavier into her mind, Terri shut her eyes tight and forced herself to inhale, slowly and carefully, before it coughed and shuddered unsteadily out of her. "Good. Again." Afsoon breathed deeply and demonstratively, and even with her eyes shut, Terri could hear the way the air flowed through her, feel her body's position subtly change through their touch, just barely smell the mint of her toothpaste. Her face ached. Her body ached. She breathed. "Good girl. Just keep breathing."

"U'm—" Terri tried to speak, the pronoun swallowed by the changing shape of her mouth. "U'm showrr—"

"Shhh. Shh shh shh. It's okay." Afsoon pulled her into her arms, even though Terri knew she must have been drooling onto her shoulder, and she could feel herself growing against her, feel her bones shifting and creaking inside of her body. "You're clinging to yourself, Terri. I know it's hard. I know it's hard to let go. But it's okay. It's safe. I promise, I'll catch you."

Her brain was getting foggier and foggier, and even though Terri was pretty sure she'd said this before, she wasn't certain, and she needed to be sure Afsoon knew. "N-Noh wowried abough me—"

"I know, Terri, I know. But you don't have to worry about me either. Trust me. I've handled far more belligerent patients than you."

She knew what those words meant. She knew she did. But right now, she couldn't grasp them. They were somewhere far away inside of her brain. It always happened so much faster than she was ready for. But she could hear the smirk in Afsoon's voice. The confidence. And she could feel her grip on her tighten, not painfully, almost comfortingly, reminding Terri of Afsoon's strong, well padded muscles in contrast to her own atrophied ones. "Hhhh...hhhhhh...!" She tried to figure out how to say...something. Anything. Whatever it was that she was supposed to say.

"I know. I know. It's okay, Terri. It's okay. Come on, let's come down to the floor here. I know being up on the furniture makes you nervous while you're still changing." Long nails trailed and combed through her hair, briefly scratching behind one of Terri's slowly growing, moving ears. Terri huffed. She didn't mean to, but she did. And when Afsoon knelt down, she fell instinctively onto all fours and didn't even try to stay up. "Good girl. Yeah, that's my clever girl." Good girl. Those words sent a shiver down her spine. A wrong sort of shiver. She could feel herself growing in all the wrong ways. Something was clinging to her. Something was on her body. Something— "Ready to get those clothes off, huh?"

Clothes. Right. Clothes. Fuck, how had she forgotten so quickly? She couldn't let Afsoon see her like this. Naked, scared, halfway through her disgusting transformation. She couldn't— "Hey. I hear you thinking in there." A tap to her forehead made Terri open her eyes for the first time in a while. Afsoon looked into her, but it wasn't scary. It wasn't dominant. At least, not in a cruel way. It still made Terri feel like she was under control, though. "It's okay, Terri. We've done this before, we'll do it again. Now let me help you get your shirt off, okay?"

Terri nodded. It took her a moment to remember how to do that, but she did it. She nodded. Her head was heavier than before. Especially the front of it. Afsoon reached over her and grabbed the back of her shirt, pulling the neck up and over her head before carefully running it down her arms, helping Terri take out one hand, then the other. If you could still call them hands. The fingers thickening and shortening. The nails elongating into claws. "Okay, we can wait on the skirt and panties since I know you hate that part. Let me get your bra, though. You always get uncomfortable with it once the fur really starts growing in."

Bra...the thing still on her chest. She wore those now. Terri tried to lift her arms to hide her breasts, but her sense of balance was gone and she fell forward, only stopped from hitting the floor by Afsoon catching her. "Nope. Mostly a quadruped now, remember? Stay on the ground. Only one paw up at a time." Terri growled. She wasn't sure why, and she immediately lowered her head and whimpered apologetically, but Afsoon laughed, and Terri realized that it was a joke. A playful growl. A conversation they had again and again about calling her hands and feet "paws" before they were actually fully like that. Breath huffed out of her in a laugh too, as much as she could. Half-laugh, half-growl. "Yeah yeah, I know." Afsoon's voice was playful too, and she touched at Terri's back—at her bra, right—and unhitched it, letting it fall forward off of her arms so she could step out of it one paw—one hand at a time.

"*hrnk!*" Fuck, it was starting. It was starting. This always happened. She knew this always happened. But even so, something inside of Terri started to panic while something outside of her started to grow. "*HRNK-rrlk!* Nnnnhhh!" She whined as her stomach jolted outward, still just a bit overstuffed with food, which somewhere far away she knew was being rapidly digested to feed the transformation into the beast. But much more important, she lowered her head down and curled in on herself, trying to hide that...thing between her legs. Arms in. Head down. Tail in. Tail...what there was of her tail. She didn't know how much of it there was yet. "*HRNK-llk!* RRrrrrrhhhhh...!" she whined, writhing with shame and fear and confusion and frustration and—

"Breathe, Terri. Breathe." There was a hand on her back. Warm. The pressure slightly muted. Not skin to skin right now. Still good though. "As best you can, anyway. I know you've got the hiccups." That word! Every bit of Terri stood on end as her whole body pulsed and she whined. "I know, Terri. I know. And that's okay. There's nothing to be worried or ashamed about. It might make breathing a bit harder, but I still need you to try and do it for me, alright?"

A nod. She forced herself to nod again. Her chin was to the ground, so it barely worked. Terri would show her instead. She forced air in a stuttering, staccato pace into her lungs, interrupted by another hiccup that made her muscles twitch, then exhaled it out in much the same way. "Again." Afsoon's voice was commanding, but kind, and Terri breathed again. In, hiccup, out, hiccup. Afsoon kept rubbing her back, the gentle pressure so comforting, not flinching even as she bounced back against it. "Keep going, Terri. You're doing such a good job tonight." Good. She was doing good. Her tail wagged. "Yeah. Exactly like that. Good girl."

Good girl.

Terri's body melted against Afsoon, still whimpering and hiccuping as she continued to change, but the panic easing out of her. The anxiety wasn't gone, but it was getting further away. Especially with the kind hums above her as she laid her head in Afsoon's lap and the feeling of her nails as they kept combing through her growing fur. Something in her said she should feel guilty about enjoying this so much. But that something got harder and harder to reach as she changed. And soon, Terri's focus was pulled out of her thoughts and into her body, moving from breath to breath, and waiting from hiccup to hiccup.

"*HRK!* Rrrrrhhhgh...*HNK*–ggrrhhh. *HRK-RRK!* Grruh!"

Terri half barked at her hiccups, and she heard giggling above her. Afsoon's nails were still combing over her. "Aww, poor thing. You're calming down now though. That's so good." Of course she was calm. Why wouldn't she be? Everything was the way it was supposed to be. Her belly wasn't hungry. She would like more food, she always would, but there was no yawning chasm inside like there used to be. The person she liked most was touching her. She had the hiccups, and that made her feel really good. Though, now that she thought about it, something was keeping her dick trapped close to her body, and she squirmed against it and tried to kick at whatever that was. "Finally ready to get the skirt and panties off, huh?" The voice above her was warm, amused, and so familiar. So familiar and so so so beloved. Terri leaned up and lapped her tongue across Afsoon's face to make sure that she knew. Afsoon laughed more. "Hahaha, okay, okay. Let me help you out, big girl."

Girl. Terri felt her tail wagging. Somewhere far away, she sort of understood the words. She knew generally what Afsoon was going to do and knew how to move as she pulled those cloth things off of her waist and out from her legs, leaving her free and naked to wriggle against the soft, carpeted ground. But for reasons she didn't fully understand, "girl" was one of her favorite words. Right next to "good" and "food" and—"*HRK-rrk!* Hhrrrrrr..."

She heard more of Afsoon's beautiful laugh and felt her warm hands on her belly, rubbing roughly through her fur and making Terri writhe happily underneath her. "Hiccup hiccup, huh, Terri?" Hearing the words, Terri writhed more, whining and yipping between the noises that kept coming out of her. "Yeeaaaah. Poor girl. You got the hiccups pretty bad, don'tcha? I can feel how bouncy they are inside of your tummy." She patted her hands firmly against Terri's stomach, tapping out a beat, a concept that she wasn't sure why she knew, but it didn't really matter. What mattered was that she kept hiccuping and Afsoon kept rubbing her tummy, her hands pressing firmly against it whenever it bounced, and that pressure pulsing downward from her belly and into her cock, which was dribbling already into her fur. "All that changing does some weird things to your diaphragm, huh? I guess we're pretty lucky that's not a problem for you."

"*HRK-glk* Hhrrrrrrr–*RRK!*" Terri whined and tried to curl up, trying to use her frontmost paws like she knew she did sometimes, like she knew she could do just like Afsoon did, but her body didn't bend the way that she meant it to, her dick far out of reach. Even so, the motions of her belly made her dick twitch, and looking up at Afsoon didn't help. Terri's tongue hungrily lolled out of her mouth, and she huffed desperately at her.

"Awww. Terri's got the hiiiic-cups~" Afsoon would sing sometimes. Mostly longer, softer songs. But that little, tiny one was always Terri's favorite and least favorite. Her whole body curled in and she whined, trying to hide her face in her paws as her hips helplessly thrust against nothing. "You do! You've got the hiccups, Terri!" Afsoon gave her tummy a few rough scratches through the fur, her hand bouncing right along with it as she hiccuped. Her other hand moved higher up, starting to rub and press into Terri's chest, finding the strange, soft parts she'd been growing. Teats? For some reason, Terri had teats now?

Whyever that was, they were incredibly sensitive, and she whimpered, her tail wagging so hard that it was slapping Afsoon's legs as she knelt to her side to keep petting her torso. "You're such a silly, hiccupy girl." Terri's tail wagged even faster, and Afsoon moved up so she could take Terri's face and gently squish it between her hands, roughly playing with it. "Yes you are," her voice took on a slight growl as she played more, grinning down at her. "You're my silly, hiccupy little puppy." Terri whined and barked up at her, though her bark was cut off by a hiccup that made her whine more, and Afsoon laughed. Her smile then softened, and the way she gazed down at Terri made her almost forget that her hiccups or anything else in the world existed, just staring up at her. "I can't believe that you thought I should be afraid of you. Of course you're just as sweet like this, Terri. Of course you are."

After a moment, Afsoon leaned over, wrapping her arms around Terri's shoulders (to the extent that was what she had), and moving her full body over her bouncing chest and belly, letting a bit of her weight rest on her as she nuzzled in. Terri huffed softly and wrapped her legs around her as best she could, a small frustrated growl catching between her hiccups. She knew that this was supposed to be easier, and that it was easier sometimes, but when she was like that she never actually tried to hug her. She let out a few small barks and snarls that her hiccups mostly let her get away with, tail thumping with annoyance at the version of her that could never tell Afsoon a single thing, even though she was the one with the voice.

"Hey, you okay?" Afsoon lifted her head off of Terri's chest and looked down at her, running a hand over her furry cheek. For lack of a better way to say that she was, Terri tilted her head up and lapped at Afsoon's face again, making her laugh. "O-hokay, okay. I'm glad to hear it, you goober." She wrapped her hands around her face and gave her ears a few scritches before pushing herself up to kneel by her side again. "Still pretty hiccupy though, huh?" Terri hiccuped to answer, it coming out louder than most of them, and she wriggled and tried to hide her face again. "Yeah," Afsoon giggled, rubbing her tummy again. "I bet you're thinking about getting rid of 'em, huh?" Terri's tail started wagging faster, and she felt her cock twitch as Afsoon said that, her hands moving up to rub over her sensitive chest again. "Well then," Afsoon's face curled into a smirk. "How about I go and get you a nice, cool bowl of water so you can—"

"GROUF! *HRK!*" Terri barked at Afsoon, who burst out laughing. Seeing her laugh, Terri just barked more, rolling onto her feet for the first time and shaking herself off so she could get right in her face. That wasn't how Terri wanted to cure her hiccups and she knew it! "rr–*hrk*–rrrraugh raof! *HK-rrk!*" She dipped her head to try and shove it under Afsoon's bowed chin and force herself into her line of sight.

After some more laughter, Afsoon playfully shoved her away. Terri was always caught off guard by how much stronger Afsoon was than her, even though she was so much bigger. "Okay, okay, I know what you mean." Afsoon sighed, then knelt up and shoved Terri again, pushing her more gently onto her side, then rolling her onto her back again, her legs falling open along with her mouth, breath coming out in huffs between her hiccups, and leaving her chest and belly completely open and bouncing for anyone to see. Terri's tail started wagging harder at that possibility, her face warming under her fur. "I know what you mean, Terri." Afsoon moved from looming over her to laying by Terri's side, and Terri looked over to see her, watching her lean on one hand while rubbing the other up and down her chest and belly. "Never realized this was going to be part of the job description when you told me you turned into an 'evil beast' once a month." Terri growled and huffed, rolling her eyes at the memory and the knowledge of saying and thinking those things. Afsoon's smile got a little...warmer, but somehow also meaner, and her hand went lower. "Not that I'm complaining." She wrapped around Terri's shaft, and Terri whimpered between her hiccups. "At least I get to do this with some part of you."

Afsoon spoke so softly. Terri wasn't sure she realized that she could still hear her. She'd heard it before, and it always made her sad and frustrated and so so so determined to do something about it once she could talk again, and even though she was the other her, she could still never fucking understand why she didn't actually do the thing she wanted to do! All those worries, all those thoughts, all those words and words and words all the goddamn time, so many that they even infected her when she was like this! Like now! She didn't want words, she wanted—

At the first stroke, Terri let out a high-pitched combination of whines and hiccups, and all those stupid thoughts started floating away as she pulled back into her body again. Her hiccupy body with a bouncy belly and sensitive teats along with her cock, so hard it was starting to ache. She wriggled, and Afsoon's laughter just made her wriggle more, bouncing again and again with every hiccup. "Yeah, you really like it, huh, cutie?" Afsoon moved to sit up again, using the hand that wasn't stroking Terri off to scratch her behind the ears before drifting around the side of her head, along her neck, then down to her soft, swollen chest. Terri writhed, then yelped when Afsoon's fingers tripped over one of her nipples. "Oh shoot, you oka—" Terri thrust her hips harder into Afsoon's hand, trying to somehow push her chest and her cock up towards her at once, even though her hiccuping belly kept straightening her out again. She heard more of Afsoon's wonderful laugh. "Okay, glad to hear it, Ter. But let me know if you need me to stop, okay?" Just the opposite. Terri never wanted this to stop. She wanted Afsoon to keep touching and rubbing her and for her body to stay warm and big and hungry and hiccupy forever, to just stay like this.

...well, maybe not just like this. Maybe her teats would keep growing. Maybe her belly would get bigger too. Maybe the reason this had happened was Afsoon had somehow put a litter of pups into her. She had no idea how that'd be possible, but if anyone could figure out how, it would be her. Or maybe she could turn Afsoon over and fill her up with puppies instead. She dreamed about that all the time, breeding with her, being on top of her, her body not able to stop hiccuping with excitement as she filled her to the brim, and maybe Afsoon hiccuping under her too, under her spell, feeling good like she did some nights. Afsoon hadn't let her yet, but Terri wanted so bad to make her feel good too, to lick up the juices between her thick thighs, to drink in the smell of her, to learn every part of her soft chubby body and just—

"*HRK!*–HHHhhrrrr!" Fuck, she was so close. Fuck, Terri had gotten so close so fast. She hadn't even realized it, and she writhed against the ground, growling and snapping and kicking her legs as she tried to thrust further into the warmth of Afsoon's hand. "*HN-nrrk!* hrrrRRUFF! Gurrugh! *HUK!*" Her barking let a hiccup come out completely unmuffled, sounding halfway like another yelp between her snarls, and her quick breath made her hiccups start to come faster and faster.

"Good girl, Terri." Afsoon's soft voice made her whimper and whine, and when Terri looked up at her, the way she was smiling at her made her whine even more.

I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you

If only her stupid stupid stupid other self would actually tell her that!

Terri tried to make her know the only way she knew how, flipping over and climbing over Afsoon. Afsoon yelped, clearly surprised by that, and for once Terri managed to overpower her, getting on top and licking her face all over, her hips continuing to thrust against nothing. She didn't care. Even as she was hiccuping and humping, it didn't matter one one-billionth as much as trying to let Afsoon know how much she loved her. 

Or, at least, that's how she meant it to be. But when Afsoon lifted a leg underneath her, Terri's out of control hips brushed her cock against Afsoon's clothed knee, and that was enough and too much, leaving her hiccuping tightly as her whole body tensed, and her hips couldn't stop rocking as she finally came, spurting lines of white all over Afsoon's beautiful body.

All the thoughts were trying to come back into Terri's head, even though she couldn't even start to understand them. She whimpered and whined, back curling, hackles raising, good feelings overwhelming, but bad feelings forcing themselves into her through the cracks. But then there was a hand against her face again. "Hey. Hey, Terri, hey." Terri opened her eyes and saw Afsoon smiling softly up at her, and a small whimper coughed and hiccuped out of her. "Hey. It's okay, Terri. It's okay. You were a very good girl."

Good girl.

Terri just melted over Afsoon at those words, flopping down on top of her. She heard the "Oof!" underneath her, but didn't want to get up. "O-okay, okay, hang on, Terri. Let me clean us both up first at least." Afsoon gently rolled her over, walking away, then coming back with a warm, wet washcloth, which she started running over Terri's sticky belly. Terri growled and grumbled, feeling the water seep down to her skin. "Yeah, I know. Don't worry, I'll try and dry you off too. Just let me get changed."

God, Terri was so tired.

Why wouldn't she just sleep during the day? This was the only time that she could be like this, why wouldn't she just fucking—

Afsoon came back before she could get too deep into her frustration. "Tuckered out already?" Terri weakly "rrrRuff"-ed up at her. "Yeah, that makes sense. Well, I'm not just letting you go to sleep on the floor. hhhhHup!" She made a sound almost like a hiccup that made Terri do something like groaning as Afsoon picked her up from the ground. "Hwoof. You're getting heavier, big girl." Terri whined. "Don't worry, that's a good thing. You were too thin, and you're building your muscle mass back up. Might mean that you'll have to get better at walking yourself pretty soon, though."

Even though she said that, Afsoon managed to haul Terri over to her bed. It smelled like Afsoon. Terri was so glad that she let her stay here these nights. She watched Afsoon get changed, and she hiccuped a few times at seeing her naked. She wished that she'd stay that way. Wished she'd let her see her like that for longer. But she didn't complain when she didn't. Because once Afsoon was redressed, she would join her in bed, cuddling up to her and burying her face in her fur. "You're such a good girl, Terri," she said, her voice heavy and soft. Terri nosed down at her to sneak a small lick to her face, and Afsoon giggled. "You're such a good girl." She paused with a yawn. It was never long after she laid down that Afsoon went to sleep. "I love you so much, Terri." Terri whined and nosed more, and Afsoon laughed softly and looked up at her. "I know. I know, Terri." Her warm, brown eyes made Terri's heart thump in her chest. "I know you love me too." The smile on her face got sadder, though, and she hid her face more completely in Terri's fur. "I just wish that you'd remember it whenever I say that."

She did though.

Terri did remember.

The first time that she woke up after Afsoon took care of her, Afsoon had told her (with more than a little embarrassment for both of them) how the night had gone, and Terri had been horrified to realize that, without the drugs in her system, she remembered every moment of it.

And she loved every moment of it.

She loved feeling simple and cared for and free. She loved wanting her fully, without any reservation. She loved being in her body, being nothing but instinct and pleasure, with nothing but warmth and safety to spend herself on. 

Terri hated words when she was like this. Words were what made her hate herself every other night of the month. Words were what made everything so complicated and bad. But she knew she loved some words. And she knew that she needed them. So as her body fell towards sleep along with Afsoon, she made her mind say them again and again, so that maybe tomorrow she'd listen.

Tell her. Tell her tell her tell her tell her tell her.