And as the fog comes rolling in.

The stars still twinkle but they don’t shine like your eyes do.

As the crowd forms on an early morning

And the Monday morning chaos ensues

The day breaks but it awaits the sound of your voice to tear it.

As the autumn leaves fall and roll amongst the freshly cut grass.

And the water runs and leaps over the craggy rocks of the river bed.

The sun shines between the sliver of the clouds but it doesn’t amount to the warmth you bring.

A day forms.

A night ends.

A week rolls.

A month flys.

But you soar like the words between my lips when I say

You’re the only one I want to hug so tight I can’t breathe;

I want to marry you because with every silly thing I say you say it’s fine; you don’t make me feel like I said anything wrong, you tell me I’m a free spirit and you believe in me as a person.

I want to marry you because you shout and scream to the heavens how much you love me & even tell people how in love you are with me and it makes me fall harder in love with you.

I want to marry you because I feel so protected like we have our own safe space and bubble where no one is invited.

I want to marry you because you’re my soulmate and I feel so at peace with myself that I think it’s too good to be true.

But the truth is it is true and I’m living in it and thriving in it.

You make me a better person.

You encourage me to be a higher version of myself.

Even if the world was rid of colour and the sky cried and thundered endlessly; it would still not compare to the coolness of your eyes.

Even if there were no words left to whisper and no wind moving through the trees; it would still not come close to the sweetness of your voice.

My calm through the storms.

My hope through the war.

My joy through the sun.

Have you felt pain twist and knot in your throat as you try keep it from escaping?

Have you wiped tears quick enough so that they don’t soak the pillowcase?

Have you felt your stomach cave and feel the sickness grow?

A sense of sourness?

A sense of bitterness?

A sense of defeat ?

Because I have,

I’m so grateful. I’m so happy.

To have someone that cheers me on even on my lonely accomplishments.

To have someone to share your joys with and will motivate you to reach your highest potential.

My heart is truly full, it’s spilling and pouring and I want to share it all.

Alhamdulilah.

I am truly blessed.

Here’s to me

And here’s to many more triumphs.

Here’s to you for being there for me

And here’s to a hopeful us

A peace that feels as if the ocean were a blanket

Like the suns arms wrapped her arms around me

And I didn’t burn

Not a scorch nor a blister

I was not drowning nor suffocating

My heart is at peace

An easy journey filled with colours in abundance

Reds of rubies and greens like emeralds

You became my pearls and my diamonds

My perfect peace

I wear you across my bare skin

And behold your infinite gravity.

I am lost yet found.

Half yet a whole.

A coincidence that we have both played a part of this crime scene.

An accident?

Not so much.

But there was definitely intent behind it.

You slaughtered my soul.

You killed my kindness.

You put my happiness in a body bag.

And then you listened to the coroner as he looked at my lifeless heart and said that he couldn’t find the answer.

How this happened.

And that question stumped you too.

How did this happen?

How did we let it get to this point?

You left me.

And tore me apart from you.

but without the bitter taste of mourning on my tongue.

The cycle that is life continues turning; whipping away at the webs that form.

Here I am once more;

finally a whole.

The void filled with infinite starts.

Piecing myself back together again like a rag doll being torn by angry wolves.

Who’s hungry?

Which one do I feed?

Or which one have I fed?

I am at ease now; knowing that I have let go of the thorns that pierce my skin and the sandpaper that rubs away my image.

Because here I am.

I am me.

I am myself.

And I have been whole all this time.

And time will be the friendly neighbour of my life; asking: