I've been feeling so sad and lonely for most of the time these past few weeks. There had been so many stressful things in my life lately. Starting from the time I graduated from college, I've been dealing with a lot of whys and hows in my life. I thought early teenage years were the worst phase of my life, and so I always looked forward to my early 20s where I assumed everything will turn around from that time. But, now that I am in my 20s, I'd like to talk to the younger me, probably my 15yearoldself to enjoy every moment from this on. Because unlike what I imagined, 20s is not so magical, not so free, not so certain, not so beautiful, not so stable. 20s is full of uncertainties, doubts, challenges, responsibilities, and bills to pay. Sadly, this time of my life is also accompanied with financial difficulties in the family. I feel so disappointed, frustrated and so, so sad. I thought that after I got a job, I will finally be able to help my family, or at least be less of their worries. But seeing my, our situation right now. It's nowhere near that. I don't think that my salary is really giving any help. I don't feel that I am very helpful to anyone. Not even to myself. I've been employed for almost 5months now, and I haven't had any savings nor did I ever really bought something for myself. But what really breaks my heart is to know, feel that I am struggling spiritual relationship with God. I've had a fair share of weakness, struggles and doubts, and I was able to go through it all by His grace. But I do not know why I am struggling like this right now. I've seen and experienced God's deliverance in my life many time before. Lord, help me with my faith, my unbelief, my stubborn heart.
vaporwave
blakekathryn
2087
dailybridgerton
stormborns
