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every love song makes you sick,

You get by, you get high,

You just wake up to survive,

Oh I would give up anything,

just to be a kid again,

Cause at twenty-six, your life’s at stake,

you need to figure out what’s next.

I remember when I was nine,

I always wanted to be the girl in white,

I should probably date in my mid-20s,

I’ll grow up and I’ll marry my prince charming.

No, it doesn’t go the way you plan it,

I thought then I’d be far from here right now,

I’m still writing this song in my parent’s house

and comforting

you made my heart race

Now, I am still lost, but I have come to embrace it. I think that’s the essence of life. You let yourself get lost in it. Instead of fighting the waves, you let yourself go with its flow. Instead of constantly fighting to breathe, you let yourself drown and get carried away.

Because the future isn’t really something you can plan and control completely. I made it my daily mantra that I just need to live in the moment and survive the day.

“He called me up and I hurriedly ran down,

In his top down convertible he asked me for a drive around town

He was standing there outside, all dreamy in his sweatpants,

I said yes because for him I’ll say yes a million times,

I asked him where we’re going and he just smiled,

But I don’t even care, I’ll go with him even in thousand miles,

Hair blown by wind, his hands only leaving mine if shifting gears

It’s calm, it’s sweet, it could also be overwhelming,

Him and the background as sun sets, it’s like the ones you see in postcards,

He finger combs his hair, his boxy smile, he looked at me, and yet again it melted my heart,

He’s all that I want, all that I need,

With him right here is all I ever wanna be”

you won’t know who’ll hurt you

you’re not sure whom you tell it to

hush, shush, be careful who you trust

do you blame the red tiny dot that blinks

or do you think it would be her or him

at the end of the day

it’s just you who’ll stay

befriend everyone but you need to trust no one

they may be here for a while but soon they’ll be gone

learn how not to give a fuck

rely on your own luck

give what’s only been given

take what’s supposed to be taken

you don’t know what’s true

Tired of people making me feel stupid

Tired of the know it alls

who put out the flame?

where’s the passion, the inspiration?

the will to live on?

the fire turned to ashes,

the dreams flew away,

who’s that girl standing

can you tell if she’s the same?

I picked up my smile

I’d put on a show

concealing with some tricks

hiding away the shadow

the ocean was endless

but my feet were stuck

I’ve been staring out at some blankness

when can I find my luck

I tried running

but where did it get me

help me, save me,

She once dreamed of having a lover

She was a hopeless romantic

A fanatic

of love and destiny and fate and magic,

She easily gave him her trust

She wanted it to be her first and last,

She had all the love kept in stored for so long,

Waiting to pour it all out to the right one,

She believed in people,

She believed in the goodness of people,

She believed that somewhat, somehow,

She might be the game changer,

She easily believed,

She had faith,

She was me.

How did it go from that to this.

How did love become such a traumatic thing?

How did I lose my faith in people? In men?

I once loved the idea of love,

I smile, I get by,

but at night, as I close my eyes

I feel a pang in my chest

Tears starts to form inside

As we end the day,

I start to realize

I only have my self

I am alone

I feel trapped inside these 4 walls,

It’s still cold,

it’s still lonely,

No matter how much I brush it off,