just a teen ready to end it all

i have Bipolar depression when I was 6 all the way to i turned 10 I was heavily bullied because of my weight it was so bad I became extremely depressed and started to “ accidentally ” hurt myself, I got left back because of the bullying in the 5th grade, when I was 7 my parents got divorced and It still botherd me to this day, around I was 12 or 13 my cousin who i was close to died, in august of 2014 my grandpa died, my two great aunts died of a brain tumor and we couldn’t do anything to save them in like March or April of 2016. when I was 11 I was diagnose with diabetes i have to take 5 different pills for my diabetes and I hate it so much……..I’ve done self harm before and I’ve attempted suicide 3 times (twice when I was little and 3rd was freshmen year)…..i just feel like I’m just a waste of space and a waste of time……I used to cry alot freshmen year especially at night when nobody can see my tears…….even tho I have friends and family to help I still feel alone all the time. I always have internal conflicts with myself and it makes me sad

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