Selfdistrhctuve And Neurotipival

Isn’t it terrible ur only beautiful when ur not “causing issues”

Talking to someone who told me that when I get annoying they stopped seeing me as attractive. While when we’re ok, even at my lowest they find the beauty in me. I could feel the switch at times.

We would be having a good time and then sometime would trigger one of us and we would fight. Immediately the treatment completely changed even if I was apologizing. Even if I was voicing an issue I had.

At the time, my first thought was that their love was surface level and so conditional. If I caused them any stress I was immediately dehumanized and no longer worth being their partner. It’s caused me to struggle with my self image and my worth as a person which kinda sucked ngl.

Now I realize that it’s a pretty common thing that I see in others and sometimes my self. I think it’s really sad tho.