Endless Words

It's like something clicked in me for the first time, in a very long time.

My first words to you. They were so funny...

My first thought that fell from my tongue before I even realized I said it.

You did like to talk a lot. My favorite yapper.

You always had so much to say. And now you're so silent.

I did like you but the day I think it finally clicked was when you bought me something. You didn't even have money. And you didn't even have to get it for me but you did.

For something so stupid.

I felt then that your actions spoke. You were someone who did first then spoke later. I think that's when I went "oh I can fall in love."

How you appeared after asking the universe for someone just like you.

All the sweet words you call me. How you'd chase after me. How you went looking for me.

I took it for granted.

What will happen to us? Do you not love me anymore?

I know I can be a bit much. I know I get mad over little things. I know I can be hard to deal with.

But I really do love you.

When we first met, it's like something in me knew you.

Someone who matched me and my stupidity.

I think for the first time in my life, I genuinely felt loved and seen by someone.

I know I had my first love, but you were seriously my second love in this life.

The stupid things we'd talk about; I love hearing you yap and discuss the things that you are learning. I love talking about science with you, about music, about life or about shows.

I really really love you. And I think I would have done everything to make it work. To be able to see you. To have a life with you.

I get impatient but I would try so hard to be patient with you. I love you so much.

Please talk to me. Even if it's to break-up with me, just tell me you're done.