Imahinasyon

These past few days, I found myself running and walking alone. I just love and appreciated the silence and how I managed to do it by myself.

But you know, there’s something missing. A piece of me that is laughing so hard while looking in his eyes.

I don’t know why we need to experience this. I miss being with him.

Magsimula tayo sa pamilya — kung saan dapat nauuna ang pagtanggap, pagmamahal at payapang kaisapan.

NGUNIT

Ito rin ang magiging dahilan ng pagiging sawi, pagluha tuwing gabi at pag-iisip na mayroong mga katanungan.

Magulo man ang isip, isa lang ang sigurado.

This girl is tired.

Tired from trying, smiling and living. But she wasn’t just tired from a long day. It was the kind of tired that lived deep in her bones, the kind that no nap or weekend could fix.

Tiredness that came from giving too much, thinking too much, being strong for too long. And yet, she sat and try to stand there quietly, letting the silence hold her—not to give up, but to simply breathe.

Because sometimes, being tired was part of the journey.

Hindi madali ang pinagdaan at pinagdadaanan natin nitong mga nakaraang linggo at araw. Pero salamat sa pananatili.

Salamat kasi hindi ka bumitaw — hindi TAYO bumitaw.

Tandaan mo, hindi pa man ngayon, sigurado akong sa tamang panahon aayon din sa ‘tin ang pagkakataon.

Mahal kita! ❤️

Two nights ago, I am hearing voices inside my head. I feel scared. I feel terrible. I feel alone. I feel so incomplete.

I really don’t know what happened to me. All I know is I changed alot when my mama died. I can’t think properly. I can’t decide correctly. I can’t even manage to get back on track.

I feel so tired and I wanted to rest so badly.

Missing the nights you’re holding me tight. Kissing me. Hugging me.

Maraming nangyari nitong mga nakaraang buwan. Nawalan tayo parehas ng mga mahal sa buhay. Nakalimutan na ring huminga dahil sa sakit at kawalan ng gana sa mga bagay-bagay.

I just feel empty knowing that these two beautiful human being is not with me anymore. I love and miss you two so much! 🤍💐

To be honest, I cried because I am the only one working for my family since my father filed his early retirement due to asthma.

I lost my job without knowing what happened that it came up with my name.

Kahit gaano pa kaliit, kapag masakit, masakit.