the rest is confetti

I'll rip my eyes out of my fucking skull. OBSESSION (2025) Curry Barker

and nikki clearly did value bear's friendship and care about him; if he'd been honest with her about his feelings, she probably would've tried to let him down easy and remain friends - but of course, it's unlikely that he would've been willing to remain friends. bear's both too cowardly to admit the truth to nikki (which would've prompted her to reject him outright and at least given him closure), and too obsessed with her to just quietly accept that it wasn't gonna happen (which would've let him maybe start to get over his crush and move on). he's both convinced they belong together and unwilling to be direct in doing something about it, and he doesn't get even the barest comfort of knowing the real nikki loved him all along. she didn't. she liked him, but she didn't love him. and he swapped her out for a version of her that "loves" him... but doesn't like him. and he still wanted to try and make that work, even knowing the real nikki was trapped and miserable inside the shell of her body, being used by the thing he willed into existence. the tragedy doesn't happen because what he wants is within reach and he doesn't realize it - the tragedy happens because what he wants is impossible, and he refuses to see that until it's too late.

all that mattered to bear was her loving him back. there's so much in human connection beyond just love and caring (romantic or otherwise) but bear was too selfish and blind and self-pitying to see anything else, including actually caring about nikki's perspective. and thus we as viewers don't really get to learn anything more about nikki or her friendship with bear because bear robs us of that opportunity. the audience kind of also has the real nikki stolen away from us in a way.

not me

Mondays, amiright?

Still on my “Rocky as 52-Blue” propaganda (Plus Grace as Laika because of course)

Anyways everyone should watch The Good Place

rocky eats shit (colourised)