Realizing when I was timid and shy I was also complete self obsessed and focused even if yes there was loathing and trauma there I really was deeply deeply self centered in a way you can only be in order to convince yourself you're cursed because the universe is punishing you specifically cause you matter more
Freeing myself every day of the just wanna blend in don't wanna stand on my opinions or be seen and known false modesty that is just a cover for unhealed self betrayal and hatred













