i ran from darkness for a long time , never getting far enough , never escaping. then i realize there was darkness carried in me – and it was only then i understood , made peace , and let it swallow me whole. now darkness is a friend , we share the same endless existence … ╱ independent original character. multi - verse. private & selective. est. aug 2018
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also the threads that i've kept on this blog are the ones i'd like to continue after the move !! but if you don't see one that you'd like to continue , feel free to hmu on my new blog and let me know. i may have mistakenly deleted it after my mass clean up for this blog.
there are such things as bad oc’s ( though obviously ‘bad’ is subjective ) and there’s nothing wrong with that. ╱ salty !! @stcndcst
** these weren’t written with anyone in particular in mind , however , if you do get offended then you’re probably one of those people who contribute.
we’ve all had them ! you don’t get it perfect the first time , or the second , or the third. creating characters is a constant process and sometimes , it sucks. someone not liking your oc doesnt mean they Hate All OC’s , they just don’t find appeal in yours at that time. if you’re so entitled to think that everyone Must Love your character then you really should take a step back and open your mind.
i say this all from experience , having multiple ocs myself. mine are far from perfect , especially in the beginning. tbh ren fucking Sucked in the beginning even though i thought i was The Shit back then. i opened myself up to critiques and development and now i’m pretty confident in her character that i believe she’s one of the better ocs ( and versions of herself ) now. that being said , i am still open to opinions and criticism about her in order to further develop her bc she an always be Better
** these weren’t written with anyone in particular in mind , however , if you do get offended then you’re probably one of those people who contribute.
it’s becoming more popular in the tumblr rpc this last few months ; coloring your character darker to depict dark - skinned poc. while i believe the intentions are meant to be inclusive and whatnot , personally , it rubs me the wrong way when i see people darkening their characters to hex code #000000 just for the hell of it , because everyone else is doing it and getting praise for it. i have no issues incorporating dark - skin for your character as a way to project , shit I do that , but it becomes an issue when – as i said before – there’s no reason for it except to jump on the trend train. saying “darker is always better” is just as gross as saying white is better. it’s boarding fetishization and racism and reminds me of blackfacing / reducing poc down to their skin color.
another issue i’ve ran into is the erasure of light - skin poc not being “poc enough” to be included in people’s Ethnic Aesthetic. you don’t gotta be the darkest shade of night to be a valid person of color , so don’t apply that to your character.
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callout culture is wack and ruined everything. ╱ salty !! @hellbits
** these aren’t written with anyone in particular in mind , however , if you do get offended then you’re probably one of those people who contribute.
it started out with good intentions , of course – expose the nasties and create a safe community. however over time , people seemed to lose understanding of the meaning of “problematic” / “toxic” / etc. and what qualifies. they started using callouts to point out petty drama and slander people they didn’t like over misunderstanding / miscommunication and dragging their entire dash along with it , starting a fight and / or driving people away which is counterproductive. people have seem to forget ; we’ve all done and said some Not Good things , yet now we have little tolerance for the same thing and demonize the other person as we victimize ourselves. now this doesn’t apply to callouts that bring some seriously bad stuff to light ( i’m talking about ILLEGAL actions that were done REPEATEDLY with FULL UNDERSTANDING or hurtful actions WITH MALICIOUS INTENT ) , i think these are good – to an extent. there comes a point when you just have to block and move on , warning those privately who are unaware and letting them come to the decisions on what to do.
i am anti - callout culture because of what the tumblr community had made it to be these days. it’s no longer a productive warning for everyone to stay away from truly toxic or problematic people ; it’s just a way to cause more drama and get validated in doing so by the number of notes and people who will drop someone just because you’re feelings got hurt. i’ve even seen people get blasted for not reblogging callouts , deeming them equally “problematic” as the offender – which is some headass logic right there. first off , 97% of the callouts i’ve seen are problems that could’ve been handled privately and second , are blown completely out of proportion as if people Don’t actually Know what they’re calling out and third , they’re not truly toxic people – just people who share different opinions than you / may have accidentally offended someone / was TRULY UNWARE of what they were doing. but people don’t even give anyone chances anymore to explain / educate / redeem themselves. its either one and done or you handle it privately after the fact then go back and realize you should’ve done that first
hc. ╱ i’ve been meaning to do this for awhile but for those who can sense auras / energies , ren’s comes off really unsettling at first. it’s not flat - out dark , or evil necessarily , but there is something old and powerful lurking. it feels like when you first step into a shower or bath or the pool and it’s not what you’re expecting ? like it’s not cold or hot -- more like a room temperature but not warm enough to be comfortable at initial contact. it also can feel heavy at times , like the atmosphere around her gets suffocating especially when she’s feeling a strong emotion / calling on spirits or other entities. many onmyoji describe it as “ the feeling of coming death ” , which is why they steer clear of her. even ordinary people at times get a bit of the same feeling , or at least feel something different about her. over time , it does become easier to stand and even get comfortable with
‘ not that i’m so easily freaked out , but you really don’t have to worry about looking creepy with me . ’ she couldn’t help but smile , despite how obviously troubled the female seemed to be , but she really had nothing to worry about . perhaps it was lucky then that she had been found by girl who lacked the ability to see , but that only made ysmay all the more curious .
❛ right . . . ❜ poor word choice. being caught of guard had clouded her sense of judgement and she immediately is grateful that the other couldn’t see her embarrassment as it painted her cheeks a rosy color. she hesitates now , taking a deep breath before continuing with caution now , ❛ i mean -- i get complaints about having a . . . bad aura as well. ❜
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“Wait…really?” That’s kind of incredible, actually. On instinct, he’d be tempted to say ‘yeah, sure you can’ but her tone is oddly sincere to simply be lying. Or at least, that’s how he interprets it, anyway. “…So…can I see?”
she was wary of the reaction , chewing silently at lip to decide where to act from here -- but didn’t sense any thing other than curiosity. so she held her hands out , presenting the hopping skeleton as it gave a dry , airy chirp from hollowed ribs , ❛ i don’t keep them around very long. i know the dead should stay dead but . . . it gets a bit boring and lonely around here . . . ❜
“I mean that’s kind of like being soaked from head to toe and going ‘not as wet as it looks’ but…I mean, okay, I’ll bite. Explanation being…?”
❛ fair enough. perhaps i can see it being a bit . . . unsettling for someone not used to it -- but . . . ❜ she pauses a moment with a sharp intake , realizing that the only explanation that made sense ( at least , to her ) was the truth , ❛ it’s magic ; necromancy. i can temporarily reanimate the dead. ❜
❛ please don’t freak out , ❜ though she knew that could be a difficult request to ask for , especially when she held the skeleton of a very much dead sparrow in cupped palms , now nuzzling her thumb as tiny white flowers began to bud from her touch , ❛ it’s not as creepy as it looks. ❜ ╱ * OPEN.
“I have been told I’m a very obvious individual, so there might be some truth to that. You know, with the way you word it– it’s almost like I’m a villain in some sort of television show.” He pauses briefly, his index finger coming to tap against his chin as he mulls over what to say. “Let see…. I made an attempt to hold your hand… I would hope it’s obvious that I think you’re absolutely stunning hm?”
❛ perhaps . . . though you don’t give me much of a villian - esque image. just a bit egotistical perhaps ? ❜ she glances up momentarily at the comment , laughing softly under breath before returning to curling ribbons around roses , ❛ interesting , straightforward. though , i can’t say the gesture is has taken much appeal -- you aren’t the first nor last. ❜
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“You must have an awfully strong intuition to be able to tell something like that!– Truth be told, you’re completely in the right. But then again I would assume most have hidden agendas no?”
❛ or you could just be bad at hiding it . . . but as i said , i’m usually not wrong. i suppose this is the part where you monologue and reveal what it is you’re looking for. i don’t judge character , just uncover it and offer service . ❜