Selfie and a life update ✨

Well your girl went ~through it~ this summer. I had some major PTSD triggers in the spring and it caused a depression that I haven’t experienced in a very long time. Just feeling paralyzed. I was napping when my toddler napped, falling behind on laundry, not seeing friends often, drinking white claws many nights.

Through all of this I lost a lot of muscle, was bloated and tired, and gained about 8 pounds (it fluctuates a lot so hard to tell exactly).

On top of that, I am getting married in about 8 weeks and am so, so crushed that instead of spending the summer eating healthy and moving my body so that I feel beautiful for the big day, I feel worse about myself than ever.

HOWEVER

I do feel like the clouds are lifting, I’ve been out in nature a lot (camping with family) and that made a huge difference. I’m currently deep cleaning my entire house, sorting through clothes/toys/clutter, and eating healthy again. It’s slow progress, but I feel like I’m finally coming out on the other side of this months long depressive episode. I’m so so excited to be marrying my fiancé, and I know that at the end of the day it will be a beautiful and joyous day, even if I don’t have my “dream body” for it.

I have some other exciting life events coming up, so I’m trying to keep my chin up and make good choices day by day.

So anyway, that’s what’s going on with me lately. Hopefully I’ll be back on here more now that I’m feeling a bit more like myself.

He spiked a fever at the end of the day so we took it easy and he went to bed early, but we spent time outside playing and just enjoying the sunshine together and I felt so calm and happy. My absolute favorite thing is spending time with my family and lately I’ve been with everyone I love often and it’s wonderful.

I even got a sunburn today putting together a garden bed for our front yard.

Hi all! I’ve been gone for a while but I’m (hopefully) back! I work in education and it was a very draining end of the year, but I’m officially on summer break and home with my son all summer!

Also, just realized shower is in there twice lol oops

I’m getting married in October so I really gotta lock in, my general goals this summer are:

-working out (even if it’s just stretching or a gentle walk, SOMETHING every single day. Been loving grow with Jo again!)

-whole food, fresh meals (enough fuel to avoid binges)

-getting outside and spending time with friends and family

-finishing wedding prep, because omg it is soooo much work holy moly