idk what to put here

I know this doesn't convey over text very well, but for the most part I'm not upset. I'm confused and disappointed more than anything.

After this post I'm going to be changing my password to something convoluted, delete my details and log out after this and go do other things. So any messages won't be responded to.

To the people who reached out to see if I was okay and check - Thank you. It means a lot even if I'm disappointed about how silent a lot of people were and just went along with it.

So I thought I should clarify some things. This is gonna be a long one.

I really don't care about the anon messages

When I said I'm fine I meant it. What I'm about to say is deeply unpleasant but there's no way around it. I've been in a fandom where a group claimed we'd be 'smited by the fires of hell' started sending bestiality, snuff and rape threats. The stuff I've been sent here doesn't bother me. I'd ignore them and roll my eyes.

Other than the one about my cat. That one did piss me off when I actually read it.

I didn't, but when I posted my initial post about this I did nearly make a joke about how this person needs a hobby. I was going to suggest cross stitch cause stabbing a bit of fabric a bunch might help but decided it was best not to.

I did not delete my posts due to the anon stuff

So on the 8th I made a really innocuous comment about piercings and the code lyoko cast (I still don't believe this is a thing)

I kinda then meandered onto the logistics of it, how would they afford them, how it could go horribly given their hobbies and the fighting etc, etc.

Next day I check the cl tag and see this. Because twitter blocking is actually ass.

And I have a bit of a freak out. Because it could just be a coincidence. But a person I have blocked and have had issues with them trying to get around being blocked, saying this within a day of me having a mild whine made me wonder if Miracle had managed to sneak into my followers.

So I went and softblocked about 20 people (sorry anyone who got caught in the crossfire. I wasn't taking any chances).

This was about the point I nuked my tumblr and turned off anon asks. Someone who follows me will have to confirm that cause it wasn't something I bothered recording cause I was debating just deleting it all and ghosting.

Then on the 15th I got these messages that I mentioned in my initial post. At this point I turned off asks all together and went through a load of other settings to limit who can message me.

So thanks for your advice and telling me a load of things I already know and for completely missing the point.

Because of the piercings thing along with someone warning me that Miracle had bragged about using alts to get around being blocked. Another incident where someone who'd argued with them had started getting messages from a burner account. I became highly suspicious of Miracle, I mentioned having suspicious but didn't name anyone as I had no proof.

THEN I WAS SENT SCREENSHOTS. I was sent so many screenshots, I cropped a lot out when making this post for length and because it was a lot....

Where I discovered, that I was right to be paranoid. Because despite being blocked and my twitter account being private. Miracle and buddies had been making fun of me and my posts for at least a week.

Feel the need to add. That I'm not bothered at them making fun of the piercing stuff in general. It's more the part where they are blocked and should not have been aware of it to begin with.

So yeah. Neat. Feel pretty valid for locking all my shit down because that is stalking and bullying even if they're not the anon.

Moving on

But the main reason I was sent the screenshots was cause two days after I came forward about being harassed. Taunie(Miracle's alter, all the EC accounts are Miracle's alters. I don't think I need to clarify that but just in case.) Decided it was appropriate to falsely start telling their discord how I was bullying them for getting upset that they'd tried to follow me after being blocked.

Then they decided to add that the reason I'd blocked them was because...I was upset at them for complaining about people drawing odd/aelita porn and sexulise Aelita. Which uh, I nuked my blog but I semi-regularly whined about being jumpscared by gross cl art on twitter and warned people if something had just been posted.

But it's really weird to me how I post about being harassed then within days they're telling people how horrible I am.

(the piercings thing again...)

WHAT DOES BOTHER ME HERE is that Miracle made these accusations against me in front of so many people including people I know and no one thought to ask them for evidence.

Nah, they went back to making fun of the dumb piercing thing that they'd taken out of context and insulting.

And not only that. Two hours after Miracle thanked someone for blocking me, they also post this.

Which given that some of the anon harassment involved death threats is really fucking dodgy. So I'm not really inclined to be charitable there. Because even if it's not meant that way, it does come across 'it doesn't matter this person was harassed because they were mean anyway'. Especially with the 'joking' right after.

Like I said, even if Miracle is not the one sending me the anon harassment, they were still making fun of my posts(that they did not have access to) and making very serious false accusations. These things are still harassment and stalking.

I don't know if Miracle and friends will see this, but surely you can tell how inappropriate this behavior is.

So...yeah...that happened and to be blunt, it should not have happened. It would have so easily been avoided if Miracle hadn't decided to lie about ableism and pedos. Because if they'd not done that, I wouldn't have been informed of it. Multiple people could have stepped in before it got to this point but didn't.

Not really sure how to end this. Uh.

Anon person - get a hobby.

Miracle - I'm not even sure what to think here. It's harsh, but I hope you learnt a lesson about not making false accusations like this because you might have endangered me and I've had to go and lock everything down for my own safety.

Miracle's discord buddies - A lot of you are probably innocent in all this given how quickly this escalated. But some of you are enablers.

I'm going to make another post in a bit, I'm not sure if it'll help because you apparently did not read anything I posted.

Because I did not post about the harassment publicly until the 15th, multiple people can confirm this. In that post I bring up how I'd turned off anon asks, but that I was going to be turning off asks altogether as they were using a burner account.

I also mentioned in several places that I'd purposely left the asks open to see if they'd give up or miss the anon button... So uh, good job there.

And holy shit your first three comments are some of the most condescending, victim blaming things I've ever read. The apology isn't much better if I'm honest, it's very 'I'm sorry if I offended you' instead of 'I'm sorry for what I said'.

'Even if Miracle and their alters are to blame, you weren't doing everything you can do to deal with them.' WHAT. No. That's not how it works, if someone is harassing and bullying someone that is solely on them.

Cause I said this right here, in the post you're replying too.

Deeply ironic of me posting this given the reason for why I blocked this person and my hate at seeing discourse.

But uh, I have been informed of Some Things. Context for the new people, hello I am sorry, for the last few months I've been receiving harassing anons calling me slurs and various horrible shit Shortly after I make a post about withdrawing from the fandom I got some weird messages.

First I was asked this

(I got permission to post this from them)

I was a bit confused by these messages.

But yeah. I blocked Miracle for the mostly basic reason of whenever I'd check the main cl tag, I'd see them posting negative shit about other fans, ships and characters. For me fandom is a place for fun and celebrating loving a series, not complaining about other people. So I blocked them so that I didn't have to see that... It's not unique to them. I've blocked multiple people for posting things I don't want to see cause muting is not a thing here.

THIS SHOULD HAVE BEEN THE END OF IT

However I then had to block Miracle and their various alters EIGHT FUCKING TIMES, I lost my temper and publicly told them to stop it and leave me alone because it was making me uncomfortable.

When I mentioned this several over people came forward to say they'd had the same issue with Miracle finding their accounts on other sites and trying to talk to them after being blocked. If they want to repost about that they can.

I HAVE SINCE BEEN INFORMED THAT MIRACLE IS ACCUSING ME OF BEING ABLEST PEDO/PEDO DEFENDER WHOSE BEEN BULLYING THEM IN THEIR DISCORD

What the actual fuck.

Our sole interaction if it can be called that is me blocking them multiple times cause I find them annoying. Then yelling because they would not leave me alone.

I did not call them disgusting. I called their behavior of following me so many times despite being blocked eight times gross. Forgetting once or twice or not knowing due to DID is one thing, but eight times? Being a fictive doesn't give you a right to trample over someone's boundaries.

And on that note, I've been sent this where they're bragging about getting around being blocked

This comment is clearly not a memory issue, this is deliberately using alt accounts to get around blocks. Which is a shitty thing to do.

What the fuck??? I'm not even sure where this came from. I block people for posting cl nsfw and again, I blocked Miracle cause I found their discourse posting annoying. It had nothing to do with the actual ships.

Why would someone even make this up? Just why?

So yeah, didn't particularly care about this person. Got informed of all this and now I think they're a piece of shit for spreading lies about really serious topics.

THIS IS HARASSMENT, you've been stalking me and making fun of what I post on discord and why? Because I blocked you and got pissed that you kept trying to talk to me anyway? Are you fucking serious? Being neurodivergent doesn't give you an excuse to treat others like shit, just cause we share a fandom doesn't mean you're entitled to what I make and post.

And with what I know now I'll say it, I now think they're the one sending me the anon harassment

One of the other people who had issues with Miracle started getting harassment after arguing with them. I'm looking for the post where they mentioned it cause I nuked everything due to the harassment I was getting.

I started getting the asks after I blocked them for the eighth time and made a public post about it

PIERCINGS I've made a bigger post talking about it that I linked there. But one of the things the anon randomly brought up was how I apparently dislike giving cl characters piercings. Which I thought was pretty weird cause I only mentioned this on my PRIVATE Twitter account, but I went through and softblocked everyone new because clearly the anon stalker had snuck in or someone was telling them what I was posting. BUT YEAH, my apparent disdain for piercings is a big joke in their discord.

Awfully convenient that I come forward about getting asks calling me things like ablest and bringing up odd/aelita, then a few days later they're talking about how I'm a horrible ablest, pedo defender who ships odd/aelita

Sorry to people who do not want to see these kinds of posts but given the nature of the accusations that have been made against me for the simple act of not wanting to talk to someone, I felt it was important to mention it.

They'll probably be cheering about defeating the mean ablest pedo as I will no longer be posting code lyoko fanworks at all as I frankly no longer feel safe after being harassed and stalked for months. Cause even if they are not the one sending the asks, what I was sent from the discord is bad enough.

NO FUCKING CLUE ABOUT THIS ONE

I said I wasn't sure if I'd post this one cause it felt really hot potato but yeah, appears the reason I'm being harassed is ship related

But one of the dumbest anon messages is one that's 'oooh unrealistic piercings so scary' which is how I know the that the person bugging me snuck on to my private twitter or was getting someone to send them stuff I posted.

Cause I got that one a few hours after mentioning how one of my mild (MILD) pet peeves was people ignoring that code lyoko takes place in 2003/2004 and use modern fashion and tech when there's so many neat little things from that era. One of the things I mentioned was reading a fic where Odd started watching youtube on his phone when

One of the other things I mentioned was piercings and how legally for anything more than ear lobes, you have to be over 16... Which I also mentioned that these kids are feral enough to stab each other and DIY.

Followed by me having the gruesome thought that these kids having piercings could go horribly wrong. Cause Odd and William skateboard, Yumi and Ulrich do martial arts, both things involve being hit in the face and possibly getting the piercing ripped out. Then there's Xana who could just magnetism them and rip them out like a MRI.

I HAD A MINI FIC on here where William had to get Yumi to come help him cause he'd tried piercing his own ears and it'd gone wrong and he needed help......

I removed everyone added after a certain date because of the stalker bragging about how even I block them they can ask a friend what I'm doing

I'm grouchy about it but I've been in worse fandoms. A bit spiteful at someone bragging about how they can 'still see my shit' even if I block them.

So for the most part I'm just laughing at how childish this is. Other than the one that brings up my cat, keep them out of it.