Hayati Ayad

@hayati-moonlight (18+ themed blog. Don’t interact if you’re uncomfortable from suggestive content.)

"... anyways, what about you? Do you dream too?"

2) She won't kill anyone not unless she has a reason to. And by that I mean, unless a visitor plans to kill her or harm her FIRST, only then MM!Hayati will turn that visitor into one of her latest 'artworks' in her room.

3) If you ask or let MM!Hayati know first, it's safe to do so! Same goes with other gestures involving any sort of physical contact with her.

However! Do avoid making sudden physical contact without letting her know. She'll switch to 'L̴̺̍y̷̭͝l̴͙̎a̵͙̋h̵̖̚' in a matter of seconds before her 'normal' self comes back.

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Y/N is supposed to be 'the guest' of MM but yeh...

Also random fact- the last audio of MM!Hayati 'talking' is my actual voice irl :]

First of all, I want to acknowledge my mistake of snapping on that anon before. Though I won't deny the fact I was really in a terrible state at that time, it doesn't excuse my actions. Much like my previous issue, I can't promise to 'be suddenly kind', but I will try again to better than that. However, do know I CAN and possibly WILL show signs of me being 'unstable'. That's my issue to solve for myself, so I will try to express my negative/toxic thoughts elsewhere that won't hurt anyone.

I've said this phrase or smth like this before, and I'll say it again. To those who feel 'disappointed' on seeing me breakdown/crash out/lash out because they think I'm this 'nice, friendly person', I'm sorry you had to witness that— but maybe don't assume I'm like that on the first place? Yes, I can be nice & friendly to others- that's how I am like when I feel happy or normal. But when I'm feeling down, I'm just as worst as when I am 'better'. I've mentioned before I don't want to be seen as this 'perfect role model' because I'm very self-conscious on my bad self. Very. Conscious.

The one thing anyone can or probably should know about me is I treat others the way I am treated. Nice to me? I become extra nice to you. Supportive to me? I become very grateful to you. Nonchalant towards me? I'll ignore you. Talk to me with disrespect while I'm spiralling? Expect the worst. And I won't even feel regret doing it.

So again, idk it js gives me a strange sense of deja vu from a similar event at the past, but I will try to do better again. Not to earn your trusts back, but because I also hate when I become violent like that. If you choose to not forgive me, I don't mind and that's fine. If you choose to forgive me, that's also fine and thank you.

Second, I'm turning off the anons for good. I'm not turning it on again so these things won't happen again. If someone wants to send me a serious/bold message, then at least do it while letting me know your blog so it feels fair for me that I know who I'm dealing with.

Third, while my asks are still open, I will likely only be answering asks I'm comfortable answering. I keep on forgetting I'm not obligated to answer everyone's reply, would've done me a favor if I remembered that when I was answering anon tbh.

I'd appreciate it if this will be the last time I make a post about that anon incident. If you still want to talk about that tho... I'm not entertaining jt anymore, because I've already said my words. That's all. Stay safe & drink water. Srs. Drink water.