lips so good

seeing all these memorials and it still doesn't seem real that he's gone. it's odd because he's not someone we saw everyday or even ever physically. but there was always this reassurance that he was alive out there somewhere doing something. we'd see him through our phones from time to time but he was there. and now he's just not. we'll never see him grow, get better, see him grow old, live his life, there'll be no more music and no more liam in our phones popping up somewhere in the world. and it just feels so unbelievable. that he's gone. that he's really gone.

oof. First post back in what feels like eons & it’s bc of Liam :// what a time it’s been…

when i first found out about one direction i must have watched 800 youtube compilations of their best/funniest moments in a single day, i was literally twitching, my face hurt from smiling, and my legs had red marks from my laptop burning through my flesh it was the most amazing day of my life.

so apparently the “bad vibes” I’ve been feeling are actually “severe psychological distress”