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WIP doodles

the light holds meaning for him, especially since his world was so bleak and boring and painfully dark until wol came into his life. to quote him directly, he tells fandaniel, “but then came the light. blinding and pure and hot—so very hot. enough to set my soul aflame.” wol illuminated his world in a way zenos had never experienced before. wol changed his life just by existing. they’re his flame in the darkness.

I was talking with my friend about zenos and I wanted to share some thoughts!!

"test of what?"

zenos, on the distance:

like. have you ever just sat and thought about. what it must be like. the trauma. the shakespearean sadness of being the only person that remembers DEATH not being a thing.

and you feel so insane because youre going around telling people “no you dont understand the world as it exists now is fucking horrible people used to not DIE.” and theyre like “its fine as it is just let it be and let us live and die as we are”, desperate for you to acknowledge their personhood. Meanwhile your entire race is the victim of genocide and slavery and cultural erasure, what little magic remains in the world is shunned and mages are systematically imprisoned for being fucking born and people die of old age and its because of you. and now its your cross to bear to atone for ALL of that and justify to people that the world could be better but no one else knows anything different so they dont get it and just know they dont want to die.

And so the only way you can cope with the trauma of that is by treating the world and everyone in it like it’s a bad dream.