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I saw someone say the other day that they "miss who they used to be and who they're going to be" and I feel that. I miss the carefree child I was that didn't worry about anything. I miss the feeling of whimsy I would get when I would sit next to a fire, stars lighting up the sky, the sounds of the country that filled my ears. I miss when making friends was easy, when it involved sitting next to someone and bonding over favorite colors or bands. I miss the simplicity of how life seemed to move slower when there was less technology, less social media. I miss who I could have been without the trauma and the pain, without the years of worry that weigh me down. I miss who I could have been if I had been brave enough to share the trauma that was happening to me, the things that I could barely whisper in the dark. I miss a feeling I've never had.