I'm okay...

“If you're going to leave me, let it be in one single strike. Fast and devastating, but never as painful as your usual gentleness. Because this is capable of confusing my senses, and nothing can be crueler than believing that under other circumstances you would stay.”

“I said I didn't feel anything. So I walked home and felt everything behind the door.”

i miss being obsessed with something, i always get really passionate about it and it’s the best feeling

You've gotta learn to stop forcing things: conversations, connections, attention, or affection. If it has to be forced, it isn't meant for you. Being ok with losing people who are ok with losing you, is such an underrated power move. It flows or it goes.

“You are the sin I will never confess. The secret I'll never tell and the ghost that will haunt my mind to my tomb. Though meeting you was as divine as a prayer.”

“It's taboo to admit that you're lonely. You can make jokes about it, of course. You can tell people that you spend most of your time with Netflix or that you haven't left the house today and you might not even go outside tomorrow. But rarely do you ever tell people about the true depths of your loneliness, about how you feel more and more alienated from your friends each passing day and you're not sure how to fix it. It seems like everyone is just better at living than you are. A part of you knew this was going to happen. Growing up, you just had this feeling that you wouldn't transition well to adult life, that you'd fall right through the cracks. And look at you now, it's happening.”

relationships are so fucking scary to me man. no matter how good things are going or how in love you are, your significant other could always just lose feelings for you and be gone just like that.

The mentally ill urge to delete everything and disappear forever lol