william mcboogerbottom III

I’ve been wanting to write something like this for a while, and here it is; 4k words on the causes, effects, and dangers of discourse (headcanon discourse, in particular) within fandom. Discourse (and entitlement) is the primary killer of creativity and connection within fandom, and in order to stop provoking it, there needs to be a collective consciousness about what we, as a whole, actually want out of a fandom space. So, without further adieu, here’s my manifesto on fandom (but more specifically, South Park) entitlement, complete with five sections and eight subsections. Let’s get into it!

I know I stepped on my own heart removing my fic from ao3 and I’ve stepped on others’ hearts as well by abandoning them because I was too overwhelmed and flustered from being hurt by backhanded compliments, and having 3 months of my work being duplicated within 12 hours by people who hate me.

If you’re a serious fanfiction writer like myself, you would know the countless number of tabs you have to open to get a good chapter out. It’s not like I wanted everybody to like my fic, anyway. I won’t ignore that the controversy with my fanfiction was: everyone was outrageously attractive, had shit personalities, address the same mental illnesses I have, (gasp) god forbid, the same humor of the show… while adhering to conventional beauty standards. So, no shit. Not everyone was going to like that shit. Not everyone was going to like those pieces of shits and I was okay with it. It’s weird that how behind a computer screen you can decide what an author or an artist is attracted to irl just from the fiction they make. *sarcasm*

Since South Park fandom, I’ve never felt free to do anything with my imagination. There were a few good people who encouraged me, but sadly my mental health got the best of me and I severed all relationships because I didn’t want to drag them in the mud with me. On the contrary, I’m numb and should be feeling quite the complete opposite. Passionate to create more WIPs. After all, that was what I felt in the beginning. But man, I hate this. I’m still broken.

The show South Park itself is proship/profiction. And it’s just sucky to see more kids and evangelical adults ruin it. I like my share of fluff once I’m a while, but I could certainly say I got burned in the process. I still enjoy the cartoon made from the ciscet white straight men very much, it’s just mad hypocritical that these kids and weird adults worship M&T: but “poc gay fic writer that writes problematic stuff. oh no.”. As we can see, I’m still very tired. It’s taxing as hell just typing this. But thank you.

Tooth rotting fluff? Darling, aftercare is Craig’s bread and butter. 

I’ve written a fic with several sex scenes with Craig dominating Stan. Writers don’t get much credit for this ship unless it’s SFW or “healthy”?? So I’ll be surprised if somebody else renews the ao3 tag with this.