Hello L. It’s been a long while since I’ve heard someone articulate your name. Tumblr has always been this safe space where I draw my energies , and seek refuge when life gets a little difficult to bear. Today I was with a group of friends and someone uttered your name. It’s been many years since I’ve heard your name, and it’s been many years since I last thought of you in all earnesty rather than in mere passing. You’ve been a digital presence since 2015, but the memories in flesh that I have of you, captured in texts, messages and photographs Still remain. The gate of memories unleashed themselves and I was reminded of our youthful selves and all the things that you’ve done to help me out during those heady undergrad days and how charmed I was by your passion, enthusiasm and sheer drive to excel and succeed. I remember your sleeping face in the room now and the times my heart skipped several beats and reveled in sheer joy of how we became friends, having once been strangers that walked different paths and converged at a single point, as a result of my own volition to take on a class that I never thought I would. Those were the days when I was willing to risk it all, and to follow my instincts and emotions. I wonder where that girl is right now. I think she is always somewhere within me, and I’ve never really left her behind- she’s just watching another version of me grow into the self that I recognize Better now. But she’s always part of me, like how you had been such a significant figure in the tapestry of my life, even if it was only a mere one to two years. The friend told me you’re engaged now, and possibly married, just like me. I got married early this year to a person who has imprinted so much in my life and has been and will continue to be a guiding presence for the rest of my years. I look forward to the life that we are building together and every fiber of my being cherishes what I currently have with him. Just like how every fiber of being also cherishes the memories I have of you and the times we spent, which happened in the days prior to me meeting my husband. I also realised that I have never really thanked you enough for my youthful days and those days of reckless surrender to my passions and dreams. You were my senior, my crush, my idol, and my epiphany. You taught me to be generous and to be kind, and to be gracious to all my juniors and I remember passing your spirit on. It was a beautiful season to have shared the same space with you and worked on the same things. Many seasons have passed since then and my memory of yesteryear is slowly slipping away, despite being held together by those remnants of digital imprints. So I am penning this down should I truly forget one day. In my heart of hearts, I wish you well.It’s a new season for us both, and our paths have diverged since I left that building in the West. Last I heard, you have also moved on too and are thriving elsewhere now. I am uncertain when our paths will converge again, and whether it will even converge again for the rest of this lifetime. Perhaps we won’t ever meet again in this universe, or in other universes out there; perhaps we will, but it’s all left to chance now. Till whenever. Be well, L. 我很感激， 很珍惜我们相处过的时光。在我朦胧不清的岁月，你指点了我很多。谢谢你出现在我的青春里。
