Just realized all the guys I dated when I was younger who would get upset when I did or wore something that wasn't sexy just... straight up didn't see me as a complete person.
I had rationalized it in my head, thinking that seeing me sick, crying or even pulling a funny face would lessen their attraction to me, and that it was somehow my responsibility to look sexy at all times because of that.
Internalized misogyny is a hell of a drug.















