𝔥𝔞𝔩☠︎

I miss rain that is actually followed by a storm and clean cooling air. rains in Oregon just to smell like wet dog n shit outside then a heat wave days later like for why.

living around majority white ppl in west coast (think Oregon for the kinda ppl/personalities) versus where Im from in east coast is killing me. the connection/interaction/experience is just not the same & cant be eccentric or talk with my hands & be animated/talk about certain things or be loud dance etc etc casually without feeling my Lil glimmer of joy left being here get dimmed and then judged for going/staying quiet and reserved too. Then the ‘tism gets annoyed about being misunderstood both ways. Having the familial connection is so rare rn and if I I find it then those ppl cant stick around bc life changes but the people I don’t like I can’t escape lol.