Kieran

I’m covered in puke but every time I get in the shower I always pass out and if I did that in my current state I’d be permanently dead

If I vomit again I think my organs will fall out

I could drink a billion gallons of water rn and still be dehydrated

I think I experienced something, I’ve gone way longer eating before but this time I woke up in the middle of the night completely overheated and dehydrated with the strong urge to go to the bathroom and I passed out before I could even get halfway between my room and the bathroom and screamed for help on the floor when I was like un-passed out because I didnt even want to scream it was like my body was forcing me to scream because I couldn’t even move, eventually I got to fucking crawling to get to the bathroom and then I was so warm and overheated that I passed out again on the toilet I then woke up to my mom in front of me because apparently she heard me scream when I was passed out on the floor like an hour ago by then and only came in at that point after I had the most insane piss I’ve had in my life she brought me a bucket and I vomited probably my entire life’s worth of clear liquid which is strange because even though I’ve got to the point where I had almost starved to death before I never realized I could vomit so much clear stuff it was so painful I’m still so dizzy and overheated and my stomach is killing me I genuinely feel every single organ in my body I feel like I’m physically rotting

Okay I have to sleep now or else I’ll have an episode I know this because every night at 930 I start

I hope I don’t post too little, I feel rather guilty about this

I hate the fact my headphones are broken I don’t want to have to listen to normfag slop

I’m terrified of leaving my house to the point I’d rather stab myself

I’m always terrified of becoming a normie guys am I a normfag

I havent been doing my Patrick Bateman lately and now there’s a giant pimple in the middle of my head

I hate sinning I hate sinning I hate sinning I hate sinning I am sorry for having a boyfriend I’m so disgusting god I know this is a sin I know being gay is a sin I need to stop loving him so so so much but like he’s the best ever

People who leave their house more than once every 3 weeks need studied

“I’m a loser” and then you can post pictures of yourself without being blocked

I hate the existence of the internet so much bro I just want to lay with my boyfriend but nope, HE LIVES ACROSS THE OCEAN