Hi.

Sometimes I really hate being me.

I had a dream last night I had a beautiful daughter. My mom and we’re walking around the mall and I had her in my carrier and it was the cutest thing ever omg I woke up crying :(

Let’s cry together and pray for a better life together.

I don’t let anyone step on me.

I can’t believe I had a dream where his friend tried to get at me and I of course turned him down because I’m not over you. Then literally everyone at the party we happened to be at with was talking about what you did to me and I couldn’t help but confront you about it because everyone knew and you didn’t have the decency to tell me? We talked about it and you realized you weren’t over me too so we kissed and we were gonna make everything work again. No wonder why I never want to wake up from dreams.

It’s true no one will ever love you forget love yourself and I never will so I guess nobody will ever love me the way I need to be loved

Maybe I was never meant for this life. Maybe I was never meant to be my family’s child. To be the only daughter. To be the failed successor.

It’s crazy to me to think about the times that my brother verbally tell my mom that they were days when he would not feel like he could make it through. Days he wanted to kill himself. since I was little I could never tell her anything at all especially when it came to something like that really so far it practically passed out from bleeding so much going to have to stitch myself together because I couldn’t deal tell my parents or feel like I could. I never felt like I could tell her about something like that, like he could. that always comes to show who my mom was really there for. I always wonder why she would never be there for him and never me. she never saw the cuts on my arm or hear me crying in the shower. The constant pain slipped through me and eventually my brother saw but instead of checking up on me they always told me to get my shit together. I’ll never understand that.

I can’t stop crying

OBSESSED WITH THIS MAN HERE WE GO 🥺❤️🤩