I’m fine and by the time this self medication wears off, everything will be okay.

I miss my person, I miss Missy.

Or hiding and playing solitaire by yourself in the corner?

Is it driving 100mph or hurting yourself?

Do you ever feel as if there is so many things going on in your head that you feel nothing at all?

For the first time I'm placing first. And I still let all of the stupid irrelevant things haunt me.

Always placing second

I’ve decided I’m going to start being a bitch to boys because I all do is break their hearts bc I have mad commitment issues.

I write in my journal about these things. But they're more about how and feel and not why or what happened to make me feel them. The reason for that is I don't want you reading my journal one day and realize how awful of a person you were to me. I don't want you to read how dreadful and depressed you made me. I don't want you to realize you're the reason the deadbeat boyfriends I chose to keep by my side were because of the way you treated me. I don't want to be the reason for your heartbreak of realization of all this, I don't want to be the reason for your death.