G.R.L

The past few years have been a very difficult time for me. I've had the pressure of trying to make everything better between family members, my dads cancer and the stress of university to cope with. I've found it difficult, there have been many sleepless nights because of thoughts running through my mind. This is where music (especially GRL) has helped me. Whenever I feel down I put my headphones in and block everything out, the songs help me to de stress and most of the time the lyrics explain how I feel. Therefore I want to say thank you to the GRL's and other artists for their songs, because I don't know where I'd be without them.

I've got actually 3 inspirations & live savers at the same time.

First, it's my cousin, she's amazing. When I was in my darkest moments, she helped me, like nobody did. I talked to her and she every time found the words to say to help me and to reassure me. We live far from each other, but we got a lot of contacts. Without her, I think I wouldn't be here anymore.

Second, there are 4 amazing girls, who are called Little Mix, there are amazing. Their voice, their personalities, everything. I love them so much, they mean everything to me. These 4 angels help me to believe in my wish to audition to The X Factor. One of my biggest dream is to meet them and I really hope it will come true <3

FInally, my last inspiration is you, GRL, you're all my live savers. I love you soo much ! I know what happened is a terrible thing, but you're amazing. The lyrics of Lighthouse mean so much for me, it helps me to get stronger.

Today, I've got some dark moments and it's not easy. But I know that I've got amazing, adorable, incredible people at my side, to get over these moments and to get stronger <3

Margaux from Switzerland who loves you <3

It is very difficult for me to speak it so openly…

The end of 2012 and the beginning of 2013 were a dark years in my life. My life in high school turned upside down, I was alone almost all the time, and it affected my life at home. I started to fight almost every day with my family. Were fights and more fights, and often during these arguments some of them used to tell me things like "You must die" "my life would be much better without having you" "you just know disrupt the lives of everyone."

I felt lost, alone, and hear things like that made me start thinking about taking my life away…"If everyone tells me that their lives would be better without me, maybe i'll do a favor for them" was my main thought. I was completely desperate, and no one noticed it, no one helped me, it was like if no one cared about me. For months I tried to resist, I tried to control myself, I was about to take a path of no return and a part of me didn't want that, but it was a very small part and she was losing strength and giving up.

As an angel who fell in my life, I met someone on the internet, a sweet boy named Felipe. He became a very dear friend (who today I am lucky to be able to call him my boyfriend), helped me in my moments of weakness, stayed with me, gave me strength and told me not to give up. He was the only person who was with me when I needed it most, even though they live far from each other, he gave me strength and supported me, asked not to give up from myself.

Felipe is my Lighthouse. 

I knew this project and the band through him, and when Lighthouse was released, the lyric made me think about what happened to me, and it was as if describing exactly what he did for me. I know that whenever feel alone, sad, wanting to hurt me as it did before, and having some dark thoughts again, he will be with me, preventing me from doing this, illuminating my life just like a lighthouse does. I can't not even imagine my life without him, I really love him and I'm grateful for all he did and does for me.

And I am grateful to you girls for making this incredible song and this project where I felt safe to talk openly about something delicate that I went through.Thank you so much

There are a lot of lighthouses in my life, my family accepted my homosexuality and loved me since day 1, i am so grateful to have a father and a mother who love me unconditionally. I have a wonderful boyfriend and and this group of friends who support or try to support every decision that i make. 2014 has been a crappy year, so many things left me speechless, disappointed, sad and devastated sometimes. Faith has always played a key-role in my life, so here I am, writing this post in order to read that i have to be grateful for every beautiful thing that i have in my life and i have to carry on no matter what. The lighthouse lyrics are so so special, reading that words helped me A LOT, i know i have people who love me in my life, i know that i can count on them and still, i seem to forget. 

I never knew how cruel kids could be. I remember I hated going to school as a little kid because everyone picked on me; especially the guys. Being young I didn’t know it, but I was gay. The boys would pick on me and it got so bad, that I asked my mom to change me classroom. That still didn’t help. It then got to the point where I wanted to die, to end all the pain. I atemped it twice and lucky for me I wasn’t successful.

My mom then put me through therapy and it help and I also came to terms with my sexuality. Along the years, I grew strong and have always had my mom as a strong supporter.

I now like to give my time to others in need, I like to be involved suicide prevention walks and anything else to share my story and maybe be some sort of help.

I know recording “Lighthouse” wasn’t for the ladies of GRL, but that song has so much meaning and I know it’s going to help so many people struggling.

XOXO,