Green&Gray

You say that you love me

But you don’t even really know me

You own me

But I’m an accessory to your life

After all this time

You still haven’t seen me

I can see the sky

Breathe the fresh air

Hear the world happening all around me

And for a moment I feel free to join in

Until I start to take a step forward

When I trust you, you withdraw

When I’m doubtful, every word and expression is examined and picked apart

I want to be calm and happy

But when I’m not obsessive and paranoid

The space between us grows

And when i am

It feels like every exchange we have

The day I heard this song live

The thoughts feelings memories brought me to tears

But looking back at that day

The song was so important

Except the feelings were not

The feelings are exponentially greater now

I wish I could see it, hold it, touch it

That way I could put it away in a little wooden box

And keep it safe