I wanna be in love.

I love this app and the people that still use it >

i owe myself the biggest apology. i am so beautiful inside and out. i’ve spent years hating my body though. giving it to men who don’t value me. sending nudes as if that’d make them like me forreal. i’ve lost myself so many times and i still don’t even think im completely found. i wish i can go back to when i had my virginity, i’d take everything back to have my innocence again. i’m not dwelling on my mistakes but fuck i’ve put myself through a lot of unnecessary heart break. i’m trying to break those patterns. i’m 26 and i feel like im 16 still. chasing temporary validation from guys who don’t even know what they’re doing with their own life. how can i expect someone to love me when i’ve never loved myself properly? i’m just grateful that im still alive to change what i don’t like. as long as i wake up, there’s always a chance to be the woman im destined to be.

i wanna be loved.

I feel so disposable.