perfect halo of gold hair & lightning

I was so afraid of losing you that I ended up pushing you away so I wouldn’t have to feel pain when you left. But as it turns out, you left because I wouldn’t let you in.

Maybe love is in New York City, already asleep, and you are in California, Australia, wide awake. Maybe love is always in the wrong time zone, maybe love is not ready for you. Maybe you are not ready for love. Maybe love just isn’t the marrying type. Maybe the next time you see love is twenty years after the divorce, love is older now, but just as beautiful as you remembered. Maybe love is only there for a month. Maybe love is there for every firework, every birthday party, every hospital visit. Maybe love stays- maybe love can’t. Maybe love shouldn’t.

My hands don’t know what to do with themselves. All they want to do is hold you.

I will love you every day we have together and every night we spend apart.

please god, be kind to me. this skin is tainted by wasted days, this youth is stolen by aching bones. please god, i am too young to have these scars.

you are so good at caring for others and keeping all your wounds covered. you are so good at drowning quietly, you’ve made it into an art. you are so good and you’re falling apart.

Don’t push me away and then wonder where I went.

❛ i’ll always have a soft spot for you ❜

duh. ∞

If ever there is tomorrow when we’re not together… there is something you must always remember. You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. But the most important thing is, even if we’re apart… I’ll always be with you

Maybe the question shouldn’t be “if a tree fall in the forest when no one is around does it still make a sound?” Maybe it should be ‘if no one is there to care, does it really matter if it’s silent or not?

@complexitiies​ showing up on my notifs has inspired me to reboot my Patty.

me @ brain: do NOT ship that. it’s a horrible idea. that pairing will only bring you pain and sadness.