Today was the first time in four years where I've seen my dad.
Everything went (mostly) well through most of the meeting (though he made some stupid/classist comments every once in a while) but it took him less than five minutes to ruin it cause I'm fairly certain that he clocked that i am trans at the very end and finished up our chat with going on a rant about how i should "build muscle to look more manly", to "watch my health and "that i should find an endocrinologist to make sure that my "hormone levels are in check"" and that, quote "regardless of what ideologies you may have, as a man you need a healthy dose of testosterone"" and shit
and then when he saw the few girly stuff i had on me he jokingly said something like "haha, where are you getting these ideas from...?" but in the "I'm teasing you instead of voicing my dissaproval of it" way.
so uh yeah. I'm 90% sure that he knows and i don't know how he'll take it when i actually come out.
with how things are going, probably not well.
