Just a girl who writes

Write about a part of you nobody has ever met.

There's a reason I keep it all locked up. It's the emotional part of me. The part that has been locked away for a long, LONG time. Because over the years, I've learned that it doesn't matter.

I've learned that emotions make you weak.

That the littlest always gets the love. Parents will always go to there side.

Say that they're young. 'monkey see, monkey do.'

that's what I've been hearing my whole life. Its never, 'are you okay?' Its always, 'you should be a better role model.'

So I just locked up all my emotions. I learned crying at night is better than crying in front of a crowd. 

That parents always take little ones side.

my only question is,

What if we don't know better?

Prev ^

Sometimes you need to take a step back. Cool down. But what happens when you can't do that? You can right in a notebook. But what if someone read that? And judges you.

No one understands you.

That's why this book is here. A safe space for all, where I write random thoughts, or vent in writing form. But that's not just for me. If you choose to read this book, you can do it too. In comments, or just by lurking.

Because there ARE people out there that understand you.

A click came from the door. Then you could hear footsteps approaching the bed that Elden  Lengi, the famous singer, YouTuber, and a lot more, was laying in. "Elden!" She could hear a soft but angry voice call. "You haven't answered my calls or texts!" Elden lifted her head slightly to see a very angry Annabeth. Annabeth is Elden's best friend. She has been for years. They met when Elden was fourteen. "Mhm?" Elden says tiredly. She puts her face back into the pillow. "Why haven't you been answering me? I got worried!" Annabeth walks over to Elden and throws the covers to the end of the bed. "Weren't you supposed to call Sapnap today?" Annabeth asks the sleepy girl. Elden immediately sits up in bed. "Shit, I was." Elden curses, and grabs her phone from her pocket. She unlocks her phone and clicks on the Discord app. She clicks on Sapnap's profile, and clicks the call button. Sapnap answers on the second ring. "'Bout time bitch." Sapnap's voice comes through the phone. "Sorry, I slept in!" Elden answers with fake hurt at the nickname. Sapnap laughs through the phone. "So, What are you doing?" Elden asks, Heading downstairs. "Well, I was waiting for you to call." Sapnap answers. "Well I know that. But what were you actually doing?" Elden opens the cupboard and grabs a bread loaf. "Thinking of video ideas. I hoped that you had some ideas too." "Well I have tons of ideas!"  Elden could see the smile on Sap's face. Even though they weren't face timing.  "well first, You should do some more manhunt videos." "Mhm." Sapnap nods in agreement through the phone. It sounded like he was writing the ideas down. "..... That's it." Elden says, spreading some butter on her toast. Sap laughs a little bit. They talked for a few hours, before Sapnap had to go for a video with Dream. So now, Elden was sitting at the counter, eating a buttered piece of toast. She lets out a sigh. She sits there for a few minutes in silence. She snapped out of her thoughts when she heard the door open with a soft, click. Elden turns her head to see her brunette friend. "Hey." Annabeth greets her friend with a little wave. "Hey." Elden says, looking back down at the counter. "You okay?" Annabeth asks. "Yeah, I'm just bored." Elden traces the patterns on the counter. "Have you... Updated your Tiktok account today?" Anna suggests, sitting down by her friend. "Oh no I haven't." Elden pulls out her phone and clicks on the Tiktok icon.

                                                                     TherealElden has posted

Elden smiles as the comments roll in. "You're lucky to have all of them." Anna smiles also as she reads the comments. "Yeah.. And to think, I was a fucked up homeless person before all of this." Elden laughs. Anna laughs along with her. Elden's phone rings in her pocket. She looks down at her pocket and grabs her phone. Sapnap's name pops up on the screen. Elden smiles a bit, then answers. "Hey bitch, Why are you calling me?" Elden asks. "Can I not call my friend?" Sapnap's voice comes through the phone. "You? No. What do you need?" Elden chuckles a tiny bit. "$5,000 dollars." Sapnap says simply. Elden's jaw almost drops. "Wha- You're a YouTuber! Shouldn't you have that money to!" Sap laughs. "I'm joking! But hey, if you want to help out a friend-" "Don't even think about it." Elden cuts him off. "Ha, Fine. But I was wondering if you want to do a video with me tomorrow?" "Uhm, Sure. What time? And what's it about?" "12:00 PM. Me, Dream, George, and Ranboo, are going to hop onto the SMP."

"Sure, I'm down." Elden smiles. "You want me to record or no?" "Sure. Whatever you want. You could live stream for all I care." Sap chuckles at himself. "Yeah, sure. Might be a little late or a little early, I don't know." Elden smiles, even though Sap couldn't see it. "alright, No problem De." Sapnap and Elden then say their goodbyes and hang up. ↻ ◁ |Timeskip| ▷ ↺

Elden lays on her bed, staring up at the ceiling. When her phone buzzes. Elden shifts her body so it's facing the nightstand where her phone lays. She tiredly sits up and grabs her phone. Incoming text from Sapp <3 Elden Opens her messages and clicks on Saps profile.

Elden Locks her phone and walks upstairs to her bedroom. She goes over to her PC and turns it on. With a sigh, She sits down in her white leather gaming chair. Once her computer screen turns on, she opens Minecraft. She joins into the Dream SMP a little early to set up for the Livestream. Once everything is set up, she decides to look around the SMP for a bit. It had been a long time since she joined the SMP. Had to have been months. She sighs again, and thinks of what she could do while she waits. Then, a message in chat pops up. Dream has joined the game. 'Why was Dream on so early?'  Was all Elden thought of. Then another chat message pops up. 'Hey, I didn't think you'd be on this early.' Elden reply's with, 'uh, Yeah just had to set up for the Livestream.' 'Ur gonna Livestream?' 'yeah, might as well.' 'Discord.' Elden looks surprised when Dream tells her to go onto Discord. After a couple seconds, she opens Discord and goes to Dream's profile. She looked at their past messages. Nothing. She will admit that Dream and her never really talked. Just exchanged 'hello's' and 'Have a nice day' But that was always in the group chat. A ringtone snapped her out of her thoughts. Incoming call from Dream. Elden answered hesitantly. "Hello?"Dreams voice came through the computer. "Uhm, Hi." Elden replies, letting him know that she can hear him. "hey." "Why, did you want to call me?" Elden asks the question thats been in her head. "Thought we could talk before the others get on." "Talk about what exactly?" "What about, Why are you a faceless youtuber?" Dream asks. "Well," Elden hesitates. "Hey, you don't have to answer if you don't want to. We did just meet any ways."

"No, It's fine. I.. My mom passed away when I was 15. My Dad remarried when I was 16, and my Stepmom told my dad I went out at midnight  to a club. I got kicked out of the house. I became really popular, and I didn't want my parents to call me for money so." "Oh, I'm sorry I should have never asked." "And I was a homeless ass person that didn't have enough money to buy a camera when I first started." They both laughed when she said that.  After a few minutes of Dream and Elden talking together, The rest joined. They all got on a call together and played for hours until Sapnap had to go.

Elden was about to go to bed before..

You received a text message from Dream.

Welcome

Btw, this book takes place in 2021, just so you guys know :3 TW: Blood and/or mentions of it, mentions of abuse, smoking, cussing/swearing, Alcohol/drinking And there will be no smut, just fluff, but there will occasionally be jokes about it. Have fun! ^^ And remember, if you dont like any of the things in the warnings, Feel free to click off anytime :)

 Warning's: None <3

Okay, here's the 2nd chapter I'm so sorry it took so long.

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(Y/n's P.O.V.)

We were all in front of the stage. Caine was about to announce one of his adventures. Then he appears. 

Caine: "I'll make this a simple in-house adventure!"

Zooble: "Wah- Oh God, I don't want an 'in-house adventure'!!"

Caine: "Don't worry Zooble, I'm going to make something un-ubtrusive you can still choose to not get involved with! Today's adventure isssss~~~~ Gather the Gloinks!!! That's right! Gloinks will be all over the tent!"

Bubble: "But what are they?"

Caine: "I'm glad you asked Bubble! Gloinks are-"

Bubble: "And what do they do?"

Caine: "They-"

Bubble: "And how do they-" Bubble starts but gets cut off by Caine popping him.

Caine: "Gloinks are tiny mischievous critters that steal anything and everything they can get their hands on! Your job is to catch these critters and you win an amazing digital feast!"

Y/n: "Wait. I'm confused. Gloinks???"

Zooble: "Whatever. If anyone needs me then f-[wack] off." She says, flipping us off but obviously it gets censored.

While they were walking away some which I'm guessing are gloinks, came and tore her into pieces. Well they just dislocated her body. And Gloinked off. Gangle squeaks.

Jax: "Oh no. They killed Zooble. Anyways, you wanna get something to eat?"

Ragatha: "Actually, I think we should go see Kaufmo. I haven't seen him all day."

Then the Gloinks come back and wreck Kinger's Pillow fort.

Kinger: "AHHH MY IMPENETRABLELL FORTRESS!!!"  He screams.

Ragatha: "Hey Kinger! You want to come with us to check on Kaufmo?"

Kinger: "No. Not really. Last I heard Kaufmo's gone insane. Last time I spoke with him he was rambling endlessly about some exit. Kinda like you Pomni, and Y/n."

Y/n: "Wait, wait, wait. Wouldn't that mean the exit does exist?"

Pomni nods in agreement.

Jax: "Could~ mean you have a jump start in losing your mind." He says, winking at me.

I scowl at him and roll my eyes.

Gangle: "What about Zooble???"

Then Jax just looks at me weirdly.

Y/n: "Why are you looking at me like that?"

Jax: "I'm fine with doing whatever. As long as I get to see funny things happen to people."

 Then a Gloink comes and bonks Jax on the back of his head. I snicker.

Jax: "Uh, I've already had enough of these things. You, me, Y/n, and Pomni, will go check on Kaufmo. That leaves, Crybaby and Ho-ha, together to go handle the Gloink situation." He says, smirking.

Ragatha: "Are you sure we should leave them together?"

Jax: "Course I do. There the two most mentally stable and best people to be paired with."

Just as he says that Kinger glitches and goes into the floor a little bit.

Y/n: "I don't think-"

Jax: "come on ladies. Let's go harass the clown." He says, walking off.

I roll my eyes and follow him, Pomni and Ragatha doing the same.

Ragatha: "So. These are our rooms. I'm sure there will be one for- Oh look! You already got one Pomni! And there's yours Y/n!"

'Oh great. Right next to Jax's room.'

Jax: "Right next to mine." He Whispers, winking at me.

I roll my eyes.

Then we arrive at ✧˖°Kaufmo's room✧˖° I look at Pomni and she's spaced-out. I try to snap her out of it but it doesn't work. Then Jax just simply smacks her and she snaps out of it.

Pomni: "What are we doing? What's going on?"

Ragatha: "We're checking on Kaufmo." She says, ringing the doorbell for a second time. "Huh. Guess he's not in his room?"

Jax: "Dont worry Dollface. I've got a key to his room." He says, pulling out a key from his pocket and twirling it on the tip of his finger.

Ragatha: "Ah- wha- wha- what? You- you- you shouldn't have a key to anyone's room!"

Jax: "Nah. I got keys everywhere. By the way, you've all been doing fine."

'Ragatha looks pi$$ed.'

Jax: "By the way. I may have left something in your room today. Your not afraid of centipedes are you?"

Ragatha: "JAX!! THAT'S LITERALLY MY ONLY FEAR!! WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS?!?!"

I kinda spaced out so I didn't hear the rest. Then I heard a voice. Making me snap out of my trance.

Jax: "N/n? N/n? N/N!! N/NNNNNNN!!!"

Y/n: "WHAT?! What are we doing?"

Jax: "I unlocked Kaufmo's door." He says, opening the door.

Once he opened it there was 'exit' on the walls and a drawing of Caine with an X on him.

(A/n: Finally! It's done!!! hope you had fun reading ^.^

Have a nice day/night)

(No ones P.O.V.)

It has now been a month and E/N is becoming more and more of a nuisance.

Zooble: "E/N GET BACK HERE!!! GIVE ME MY ARM BACK!!!"

E/N: "HAHAHHAHHAHAHHAHHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAH!!!!!"

Timeskip>>>

(Trix's P.O.V)

Trix: D-[Wacky sound] IT E/N, GET BACK HERE!!!"

Jax: "HELP ME!"

Right now Jax was being chased by E/n for the fifth time today. The girl is dedicated.

 E/n: "But Jaxxy bear! don't you like what I did with Zooble and her arm?!" She says chasing after Jax.

Jax: "Dont you dare call me that again!" He exclaims running away.

Caine: "Gather around everybody! It's Ad~venture time!"

Jax: "Oh thank God." He says as he walks over to Caine.

I walk over to Caine as well. And so does everybody else.

Caine: "Today we will be playing 'Hide and seek!' "

Trix: "Hide and seek?"

E/n: "Can I hide with Jaxxy poo!"

Jax: "Absolutely~ NOT!"

E/n: "But why not..?" She says fake pouting.

Trix: "Cuz your annoying as h-[Wacky sound]."

E/n: "Hey! I am Not!"

Caine Clears his throat to get everybody's attention.

Caine: "Any~ways! Ragatha you will be with Zooble, Kinger you will be with E/n, And that leaves Jax and Trix together!"

Trix: "And~ what's Bubble going to do?"

Caine: "Oh right, Bubble! He will be the seeker!"

Trix: "Wha- He's just gonna cheat!"

Caine: "Oh don't worry! I said I would pop him  if he did!"

Bubble: "Yep! I promise I wont boss!"

Caine: "Well that settles that! You all have 5 minutes to hide! Trust me you need it, This place is big."

((Okie that's the end of this chapter because I want a cliffhanger >:).  It's still short thoughhhhhh~ :( At least it didn't take 2 WEEKS OR MORE like the other chapter. Anyways yeah thank you for reading. :) ))

   Warning's: Cursing (Only once)

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(Narrator's P.O.V.)

Y/n was an average girl. She wasn't the richest, but she had enough money to buy her own house and take care of her self. Y/n was laying in bed when she heard a knock at the door. She was confused as she didn't order anything. But she got up anyways. When she opened the door there was nobody. Exept a package, With a note.

(Y/n's P.O.V.)

I pick up the note and read it.

Dear Y/n, No. You do not know me, But I know you. I watch you every morning and every night. I have come to warn you. You my friend are in grave danger. I have bought you this to save you. Once you put this on you will be in a whole new world. Do not be frightened when you are there. There are many people there, they will take care of you.                            From: ????

'Sheesh, creep much?'

I look at the box, I then look around, Nobody.... I pick up the package and bring it inside. Once I'm inside I open up the box.

'A VR HEADSET?!?!? WHO THE HELL WOULD LEAVE A BRAND NEW HEADSET AT MY DOOR?!?'

Okay. I did not order this! Well I have nothing better to do. Guess I'll try it out. When I finished setting everything up I put the headset on. All of a sudden everything went white. BRIGHT white. Then, I was falling. I hit the ground.

Y/n: "Where... AM I?!?!" I yell, Standing up.

Then I felt two gloved hands on my shoulders.

I flinch and fall backwards. I wait for the impact to hit. But.... nothing? Just two gloved hands catching me. My eyes widen is surprise. There, standing in front of me, was a tall purple rabbit. AND I WAS IN HIS ARMS!? I quickly backed away. He just chuckled.

Y/n: "Who are you?!?! And where am I?!?"

Then a jester who was about 5'3 went behind me like she was hiding. And then TEETH WITH EYEBALLS APPEAR OUTTA NO WHERE!!???

???: "Welcome to the Amazing Digital Circus!! My name is Caine, And I run this place!!"

Y/n: "Okay..... Soooo how do I you know.. LEAVE?!"

Then a rag doll appeared, followed by ribbons with a mask.

???: "Well, don't freak out or anything but uhh-"

???: "You can't!" Comments the purple rabbit.

Both: "W-WHAT?!?!??!?!?" Me and the jester say in sync.

Then a mismatched shape appears.

???: "Shut up Jax. But yeah, he's right. Welcome to your new home, And your new body."

Caine: "Alright! The mismatched shape, their name is Zooble, The rag doll is Ragatha, The ribbons and mask is Gangle, The king chess piece is Kinger, And the purple rabbit is Jax!" 

Me and the jester look around.

Caine: "And your name will beeee~~~~~ What ever you like!!! O-or I can choose."

???: "I- don't care just pick anything." Says the jester. 

Caine then snaps his fingers and then a game show machine falls from the sky. He pulls a lever.

Caine: "What do you think of Xddcc?"

My eyes widened at how well he pronounced that.

???: "I dont-" The jester starts but is cut off.

 Caine: "You're right, terrible!" He says, pulling the lever again.

This time it landed on Pomni. Oooo I like that.

Caine: "What do you think of, Pomni?"

The jester nods.

Caine: "Alright~! What about you?" He says pointing at me.

Y/n: "I don't care either."

Caine smiles (If he can) and pulls the lever.

Caine: "What about, tthhs?"

My eyes widened.

Caine: "I'll take that as a no!" He says pulling the lever once more. "What about, Y/n?"

Y/n: "I... Like that."

Caine: "Alright! Y/n it is!!"

Jax: "A pretty name for a pretty girl."

I scowl at him.

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A/n- Hooray! Chapter one finished!! **Happy dance** Okie I had a lot of fun writing this! I hope you had a lot of fun reading! Okay well, that's all I have to say. 

Thank you for reading and have a blessed day!

- Goldie

(Just a Ps: I made this a little while ago so yeah)

Hi :3 Welcome to my third book! I did work on this a lil bit before I published it so it wasn't just an author's note. So yeah! I hope you have fun reading this book! 

This is a Jax x Fem reader ((Y/n)) so yeah, here are all the things you need to know.

Y/n- Your name

N/n- Nickname 

E/c- eye color

E/n- Enemy's name

A/n- Author's note

Y/l- Your look

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Okay now. Your look! You can choose whatever you want for that.

Example: A mint green fox with a neck choker with a pink shirt and green cargo pants.

Or your OC. Have fun reading!

Also there will be Waring's at the start of each chapter so yeah. It's not going to be anything bad but there still be there.

(A/n: Okay so, in this chapter and the on going chapters they will have E/n in it. E/n means Enemies name just so you know.)

(Trix's P.O.V.)

It's been a week since I got here. I was... getting used to it? I was in my room when suddenly I heard a loud scream. I had to cover my sensitive ears. I lazily got out of bed, straightened my fur a bit and then walked out. I was greeted with loud yelling and a pillow thrown at my face.

???: "WHERE AM I?!?!!?"

Trix: "Okay, Okay, take a chill pill."

???: "DON'T TELL ME WHAT TO DO!!"

sheesh, she is not taking this well.

???: "WHO THE H-[Wacky sound] ARE YOU?!" 

I roll my eyes, and then somebody walks in. Jax: "What the heck? I'm trying to sleep y'know."

???: "I REFUSE TO CAL-"

She looks at Jax.

???: "H-Hi." She says walking to Jax.

Jax: "Whatever, Heyyyyyy~ Trixxxxxxx~" He says pushing the girl to the ground.

Trix: "HEY CAINE!!! SOMEONES HERE!!"

Caine: "Welcome to 'The Amazing Digital Circus!!'  Lets give you a name. Your name can be anything-" Then he starts to talk SUPER fast like the AI he is.

After a couple minutes the new girl got her name it was (E/N), In my opinion it was the worst name ever. And even worse she was like head over heels for Jax! And, No I am not jealous. I'm just tired of Jax barging into my room to hide from (E/N). One morning I heard a knock at my door. I opened it and to my surprise it was..... (E/N)? Ugh what does she want.

(E/N): "Hey Trix can I come in?" She asks kinda polite, but I knew she was up to something.... and it wasn't good.

Trix: "Uh- sure."

(E/N): "Thank you."

After a couple minutes she asked me a...... strange question.

(E/N): "You don't..... like Jax do you?"

I was taken aback by her question.

Trix: "What? No."

(E/N): "huh, I don't believe you." She says crossing her arms.

Trix: "So? you really think I care if you believe me or not?"

She huffs and walks out looking back at me with a warning look.

Pffftttt I'm not scared of her. And ever since that we are enemies.

 Timeskip>>

(No one's P.O.V.)

One week later, they all got along just fine except..... (E/N).

(Trix's P.O.V.)

Ugh, I hate her. She's always by Jax, And if she's always by Jax then Jax is always running into my room to hide! I was lost in thought, Trying Again, to remember my name. when somebody tapped me on the shoulder. I flinch and turn around.

Ragatha: "oh! sorry I didn't mean to scare you!

Trix: "Its fine Ragatha, if anything you helped me."

Ragatha: "helped you with what?"

Trix: "getting lost in my train of thought.... Again.."

Ragatha: "Oh! of course."

Caine: "Line up everybody! we have a new adventure for today!"

A/n: Thanks for reading!

Battle of the bunnies (Tadc x Tadc Oc)

Let the battle begin {1} ___________________________

(Third POV)

Ragatha, Kinger, Gangle, and zooble were doing the theme song and then a new character arrived. He was a tall purple bunny. And then all of a  sudden another character arrived. She was a yellow Bunny with a green dress and black over it. "hel-" Caine the ringmaster says but is cut off by the other character joining. "why hello you two!"

"Where am I?!?!" Says yellow bunny.

"My, I've never seen something like this in my whole digital life!" Says Caine.

"what? you've never seen what?" Asks the purple bunny.

"well two characters arrive at the same time and both be bunnies!"

"A BUNNY?!" Says the purple bunny.

"Welp that's going to affect my ego." Says the yellow bunny.

"Let's give you  both a name!" Says Caine. "you will be Trix!" he says pointing at the yellow bunny. "and you will be Jax!" He says pointing at the purple bunny.

"where are we?" Asks Trix.

"you are in the AMAZING DIGITAL CIRCUS!!"

"the what what?"

"The. Amazing. Digital. Circus!"

"O....Kay." Jax says.

(Trix POV)

God, I can already tell we're not going to be the best of friends.

"Okay.... but uh-...... how do we... y'know.... Leave?"I ask.

"Uh-"Caine says like I just asked him if the world was ending.

"uh don't freak out or anything but uh-.. -"Says Ragatha but then is cut off by Zooble. "You can't."Says Zooble.

"Uh-"Me and Jax say.

"ZOOOBLE! but she's right..." "wa- WHAT!?!"I yelled then immediately regretted it because of my sensitive bunny ears.

((A/N: sorry this was so short! I just kinda wasn't feeling it today. I have writer's block! I hate itttttt~!  anyways hope the next chapter will be longer anyways byyyyyyyee~!))

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