Cai

And I have a question for you, I don't know if you've talked about this before... What character from A Little Life do you relate to most? I personally see pieces of myself in all 4 of them (Jude, Willem, JB and Malcolm) and I'm curious about you :)

💌 hello lovely!!! thank you so much!!!!! oh this is the sweetest inbox msg in the world!!!!!!!!!!!!! the way im falling instantly in love with you!!!

i agree with you, at times i see myself in all of them; i relate to jude how i encourage and am drawn to vulnerability and yet am repelled by it in me, i understand willem because i also “am a forest fire and i am the fire and i am the forest and i am the witness watching it”, i cower and ache like jb in the way a kid does as they slide a note that reads “im sorry” in the crack between the floor and the locked door in front of them, i see malcolm because i too have so many questions and the more i question ! the more questions i have ! and even when i have answers they seem to be fill in the blank guesses who no one can tell me whether they are correct or not.

💌 you mean…. my favorite pastime is encouraged? i wanted to give a long list but i would also like to post this before bed so it arrives to you sooner!! i hope these can suffice for now 🫶

-even after jacob passed he still had the child-like hope that he would never have to live without his parents, and when they passed as well, he resolved to always show love and to hold on to every person for as long as he possibly could

-he continued to publish books, unlike the ones previous, the acknowledgments now referenced a son

-has what julia would describe as a giddy ‘i made jude laugh’ smile

-is the first person to grab a blanket to lay over the person who’s fallen asleep on the couch

-harold is a diehard dessert lover to his core

-phone calls are his favorite thing, his calls with willem are the ones he secretly treasures the most

-he finds it impossible to throw away anything of sentimental value

-has the opinion that candy corn is the worst part of halloween, he believes that people who eat it (andy, willem) are genuinely insane. each october julia buys some for guests, and each october harold complains

💌 oh my, where do i even begin? honestly, i think i’ll make a full post later on but for now i’ll share a little list 🤍

-jude is the best gift giver in his social circle

-at night he thinks of the people he loves, but it’s imagining universes where his life is different that helps him to fall asleep

-his love languages are quality time, and physical touch (to his demise)

-jude is the type of friend that feels like “home”

-he is weary of people who are incredibly religious, and he scolds himself for it

-records are always playing softly on the nights he cooks, or while he completes chores on his days off

-he believes genuinely in promises

-jude takes pride in being a morning person

-he always brings his friends their favorite little things or things they would like, pastries, drinks, flowers, books, fragrances